Balance
Wow, it's nice to have a place where I can say whatever I want without having to worry about the wrong person seeing it, cause no one knows about it. Anyway, I am currently in freak out mode, trying to figure out what the hell I'm going to do. I'm trying to compaire them in my mind, make a list of pros and cons, but how can you explain love? It's just too hard. I find that the resons why I do and do not love Jeremy are easy to pin-point, and yet my relationship with George it completely unexplainable. Am I doing the wrong thing? Am I making the wrong decisions? Jeremy told me today that he had half a mind to force me to choose between him and George, but that the only reason he didn't do so was because it would be wrong and unfair to me. I honestly think it's because he's scared of what the outcome would be. God, this whole thing is fucked up. There are so many things running through my mind right now and I can hardly sort them all out. I need some seriouse help.