Halucinations & Procrastination
Hey people reading this, how the hell are all you? ........ yeah, papayas were never ment to be loved that way, neither are cacti. This is another long one cause i've just been too lazy to sit my ass down & write. Anyways, on with this mangled excuse for a journal.
Saturday - The day was pretty damn boring, i got a call early from my cousin saying he had arived in corpus again. Later i called Stacy & we were talking for a while about how she was going ot be moving sometime at the end of the month. With that said and done we started talking about doing something before she left, she wanted to smoke that day with me. She also invited one of her friends, the 1st chick i danced with at the club......... ahah..... yeah i must have been really drunk that night. Anyways, so i showered & everything & braught my wallet and a cell. Anyways they got there & i saw her while i was sober........ i would of rather been drunk. Anyways we drove around and crap & stacy thought of buying from her sister & we took a long ride over there. While she was doing that me and whatever that girls name was, we stayed in the the crappy lincoln that didn't even have a horn. She went on about how she named her used car bob. Each both of us put in 10 bucks & it looked like stacy came out with a 30, which kicked ass. Then while that chick tried reversing out of the lot the car kept turning off, it did it about 6 times so she was all bitching at bob. Then we finally left & went to stacy's bf's place. She told me about how troy broke the master bong & how we had to use the other one. No prob, damn that was some good fucking shit tho, i must have done around 3 bong bowls & 1/2 the joint we all shared and i was so fuckxed. Stace gave me a glass of kool-aid like 30 earlier, i wassent feeling all that great so i went outside. I would close my eyes & i would see neon things in my head. Lots of neon green & red & black, very trippy. After being outside for about 10 min. that other chick & stacy came out, it was time to leave. We were just walking to her car after what felt like 10 more min we stoped & we had to switch cars, before i got in the other car i felt that my mouth was so dry & just thought “i wishs it wasent this damn dry”, right then & there all the kool-aid came back up. hahaha, good thing i was still out of the car. I got in & the layed down for the duration of the ride home. That was the 1st time that had happened, hah. Anyways, i got home & went straight to bed where i over slept.
Sunday- Dont really remember a whole lot, im sure i still felt a little woozie, prolly just slept in late, drew, did some other crap. Tried calling stacy to see if anything was left over, no answer.
OK the week is going a little far back, it mostly revolved around this chick i was talking to over the phone, after talking to me for about 3 days she wanted me to go with her to SA alone, wanted to teach me how to swim & ride a bike (don’t laugh fuckers! hah, i don’t really care if you laugh at that or not), said she was into me, wanted to hang out with me, called me almost everyday in the 7 day period i knew spoke to her her & all this other bullshit. Anyways, we decided to meet up at the mall this past Friday (keep in mind that we only talked on the phone & she had this whole schedule planned out for the day)
Friday 5/20 - She told me she wanted to get there early, i had to catch a ride to the mall, it was around 10:30 when i got there.I killed some time by walking around some stores & crap since she was getting there at 11. So i just wait around in the food court for her & then i see her pop out. Stood behind her & called out her name & she was being all dumb & “don’t scare me like that” so i sit down next to her & she started showing me some pictures she said she was going to show. Then it got a little quiet & we talked for a bit when she just blurted out “you lied, you said you wernt one of those punk guys”, i take a look at what i was wearing, black boots, a cradle of filth shirt & dark cargos ”.......punk? where?” . “well, goth or whatever its called”, she knew full well i liked metal & i don’t consider myself goth either because i don’t like being narrowed down to something so specific. Yes, im a fuckin’ semi-hyperactive, gibberish talking ,dead kennedys fan of a mexican goth peroson or someshit like that, it doesent really make sense. cause i am not a fucking goth, i mean i like some of the music & black & blood red are my favorite colors, but still bastard, i like some classic rock, i act stupid in front of people i trust, I don’t know. She also pointed out that my hair was longer than hers. Not my fault, told her my hair was past my shoulders, her Jesus had long hair, would she have told him she doesen’t like him cause of it? Prolly fucking not. I told her she looked too younge, i asked her if i looked old, she said yes. Anyways, we were just there for about 5 min & then she just got up & said “i’ll call you later tho”. Mother fucker...... who the hell did she think she was, i never had a personal reason to hate fucking preps, i always gave people equal opportunities to appeal to me. Anyways, she left after saying that, should have just left without saying anything. Anyways, despite that i decided to stick around for a while, i walked to the other mall to see what the hell i can do, i wanted to see constantine to see what the fuck it was about. It was no longer there to watch, so i decided to watch the second installment of the ring. It was 2 hrs till it would show so i left the mall & went to dick-go-round where i spent an hour & got an Exhumed cd. Went back & saw only an hour had passed. Went to Rich’s & then the arcade, then i decided to call the same friend possesive asshole bf cause they had broken up like 3 days ago or so & i just wanted to kil some time by talking ot her, halfway though the conversation she said they had gotten back together, i was kinda dissapointed on her but i kinda figured it wouldent last, after that whole talk ended i decided to not call her till she called me back, people have a tendancy to come back & to say the truth she didn’t disapoint 3-4 days later. i went inside & waited 20 min till the movie began. The movie was......... hah, yeah, it was a waste of 50¢, except that scene with the crazy deer, that was pretty hilarious, i think the new movie relied too much on the other one to tell the story & rehashed the other ones crap to tell it too. Anyways, after that i walked back to the other mall. Walked around for a while, talked to gabriel in the nut stand for a while, he complained of how the only cd he owned was the 3rd SOAD & thats cause a mutal person we know named Hope gave it to him, so i gave him my back up copy of the new SOAD, lol. After that my friend from HS, David McKean came in & we just fucked around like we used to. He was buying his gf a graduation present, walked with him for a while & then he had to leave. Taslked with gabe somemore till i got bored & decided to call for a ride out of there. Passed to FYE to pick up a Black Daliah Murders CD i separated to buy that day. I paid for it & i asked the guy if i could order cds there & i told him i wanted an Aborted cd (best thing out of Belgium since their waffles), HOLY FUCKING SHIT they had a copy of the new release! Oh man, i almost had an orgasim holding that cd in my hands (not really, but you get the point). I walked to the food court to open my CDs when i saw whats his face, some guy from HS who asked me to be in his ban about a year ago but he was too lazy to organize anything. Well we talked, he had dropped out of school & he was going to play DDR (lol) & his cousin or whoever it was was looking at my cds. Her name was Sonya, she was pretty cool, hopefully i’ll bumb into them later. I made my way to the entrance where i got picked up
When i got home my cousins & his wife from mexico had come (Adrîan & Christina, Abé, & their parents) that night Lettie had invited us to go drink with Chupitos (blanka) & her husband. We got here & they didn’t card me like usual cause i just look that fucking old. To wrap this up we got 4 bottles of 32 oz Budlight bottles, each glass given to us held exactly 1/3rd of the beer in the bottle. I drank 4 glasses & some that Christina left cause she didn’t want it & gave it to me & a shot of something white that tasted like Vick’s Vapor rub before we left. We walked to a Kareeoke bar named Cheers, i was felling on the walk over there. I was given 5 more beers there this time 12 oz. bottles, i didn’t order them, i was just served them. I got up to use the little boys room & holy fucking shit i could feel it so bad. I was flailing around while i was in there & while i was washing my hands. I walked back to the table as non-chilantly as i could. The DJ then dnaced with Abé, i wanted to dance too, i would have sucked tho cause i was so increadibly hammered, i mean damn i figued i drank about 100oz of beer & a shot so i was way overdone. When we left outside i went all Dani Filth & fell on the side walk, well technically i didn’t fall cause i used my hands & knees to stop me. But yeah, i was fucked up bad. We then went to Lettie’s pad where i took a shot of Jose Cuervo Tequilla. I tried riding Lettie’s kid’s mini trycycle, fuck i must have looked funny. I mean really, a long haired 19 year old that about 6.4 riding a trycicle, it jsut got runnier when i fell over on my side. I was wearing a while shirt, but i really didn’t care cause i was pretty drunk. Then i went to the back to lay down on the weight bench. I layed down & the whole thing fell to the side with me on it, i was surprised that the weights didn’t land on my head. I was laughing so much. I wish i had somoen else i could be stupid with at the moment.I just spent time being stupid till we went home (Ardian & christina & me) at about 5am. From all the damn walking done in that day (& mostly because of the damn shoes) my feet were in pain for about 3 days, fun i suppose.
Saturday 5/21 - woke up with no hangover, but i still felt a buzz going on, like always. did some crap, later in the night we were supposed to go out again, but we never did. i smoked a little, another holucinating night. Adrian found out i was smoking cause i showed him the green, he didn’t seem to like it all that much, told him i was the lightst smoker i knew & that comforted him a little.
Sunday - that chick i said was going to call back did this day, i think. it was an ok day, didnt really do much else, just stayed home and talked to some people. My cousins left this day.
Wednesday - the chick i was talking to again came by again. We talked for a while & then smoked a J between us & we both got so messed up. She thought she broke her finger & i was all worried about her & all this other crap. She braught her cat with her, it was a pretty awsome looking cat. More things ensued, just us being stupid mostly. She then left where she would sneak out at night & get stuck at the beach smoking what was left over (not much) in her van. The van got stuck in the sand. She didn’t get home till 12noon the next day. She almost got arrested & is grounded for an indefinate amout of time, so it sucks to be her about now, lol.
Friday - Talked to miss Iowa (not really niss iowa, she just lives there) in the morining hours,it was much fun. Not really doing much now. Lette said she was going to help me get a job at her old place of enployment, its customer service or some crap like that. Sounds kinda fun i suppose. Anyways thats it for now.
Later people, dont really want to end this any particular way, but oh yeah, if any one wants to go to mexico with me & my padre (he’s going to a wedding & i’m going to go hang out (clubing or drinking or just to check out the rest of the city) with my cousins at monterrey, the most kick ass city in mexico), then just say so cause i really don't feel like being dumb all by myself... hmmm, really should go to that plaza where i jumped out of a moving bus to buy more crap. anyways, later people.
Saturday - The day was pretty damn boring, i got a call early from my cousin saying he had arived in corpus again. Later i called Stacy & we were talking for a while about how she was going ot be moving sometime at the end of the month. With that said and done we started talking about doing something before she left, she wanted to smoke that day with me. She also invited one of her friends, the 1st chick i danced with at the club......... ahah..... yeah i must have been really drunk that night. Anyways, so i showered & everything & braught my wallet and a cell. Anyways they got there & i saw her while i was sober........ i would of rather been drunk. Anyways we drove around and crap & stacy thought of buying from her sister & we took a long ride over there. While she was doing that me and whatever that girls name was, we stayed in the the crappy lincoln that didn't even have a horn. She went on about how she named her used car bob. Each both of us put in 10 bucks & it looked like stacy came out with a 30, which kicked ass. Then while that chick tried reversing out of the lot the car kept turning off, it did it about 6 times so she was all bitching at bob. Then we finally left & went to stacy's bf's place. She told me about how troy broke the master bong & how we had to use the other one. No prob, damn that was some good fucking shit tho, i must have done around 3 bong bowls & 1/2 the joint we all shared and i was so fuckxed. Stace gave me a glass of kool-aid like 30 earlier, i wassent feeling all that great so i went outside. I would close my eyes & i would see neon things in my head. Lots of neon green & red & black, very trippy. After being outside for about 10 min. that other chick & stacy came out, it was time to leave. We were just walking to her car after what felt like 10 more min we stoped & we had to switch cars, before i got in the other car i felt that my mouth was so dry & just thought “i wishs it wasent this damn dry”, right then & there all the kool-aid came back up. hahaha, good thing i was still out of the car. I got in & the layed down for the duration of the ride home. That was the 1st time that had happened, hah. Anyways, i got home & went straight to bed where i over slept.
Sunday- Dont really remember a whole lot, im sure i still felt a little woozie, prolly just slept in late, drew, did some other crap. Tried calling stacy to see if anything was left over, no answer.
OK the week is going a little far back, it mostly revolved around this chick i was talking to over the phone, after talking to me for about 3 days she wanted me to go with her to SA alone, wanted to teach me how to swim & ride a bike (don’t laugh fuckers! hah, i don’t really care if you laugh at that or not), said she was into me, wanted to hang out with me, called me almost everyday in the 7 day period i knew spoke to her her & all this other bullshit. Anyways, we decided to meet up at the mall this past Friday (keep in mind that we only talked on the phone & she had this whole schedule planned out for the day)
Friday 5/20 - She told me she wanted to get there early, i had to catch a ride to the mall, it was around 10:30 when i got there.I killed some time by walking around some stores & crap since she was getting there at 11. So i just wait around in the food court for her & then i see her pop out. Stood behind her & called out her name & she was being all dumb & “don’t scare me like that” so i sit down next to her & she started showing me some pictures she said she was going to show. Then it got a little quiet & we talked for a bit when she just blurted out “you lied, you said you wernt one of those punk guys”, i take a look at what i was wearing, black boots, a cradle of filth shirt & dark cargos ”.......punk? where?” . “well, goth or whatever its called”, she knew full well i liked metal & i don’t consider myself goth either because i don’t like being narrowed down to something so specific. Yes, im a fuckin’ semi-hyperactive, gibberish talking ,dead kennedys fan of a mexican goth peroson or someshit like that, it doesent really make sense. cause i am not a fucking goth, i mean i like some of the music & black & blood red are my favorite colors, but still bastard, i like some classic rock, i act stupid in front of people i trust, I don’t know. She also pointed out that my hair was longer than hers. Not my fault, told her my hair was past my shoulders, her Jesus had long hair, would she have told him she doesen’t like him cause of it? Prolly fucking not. I told her she looked too younge, i asked her if i looked old, she said yes. Anyways, we were just there for about 5 min & then she just got up & said “i’ll call you later tho”. Mother fucker...... who the hell did she think she was, i never had a personal reason to hate fucking preps, i always gave people equal opportunities to appeal to me. Anyways, she left after saying that, should have just left without saying anything. Anyways, despite that i decided to stick around for a while, i walked to the other mall to see what the hell i can do, i wanted to see constantine to see what the fuck it was about. It was no longer there to watch, so i decided to watch the second installment of the ring. It was 2 hrs till it would show so i left the mall & went to dick-go-round where i spent an hour & got an Exhumed cd. Went back & saw only an hour had passed. Went to Rich’s & then the arcade, then i decided to call the same friend possesive asshole bf cause they had broken up like 3 days ago or so & i just wanted to kil some time by talking ot her, halfway though the conversation she said they had gotten back together, i was kinda dissapointed on her but i kinda figured it wouldent last, after that whole talk ended i decided to not call her till she called me back, people have a tendancy to come back & to say the truth she didn’t disapoint 3-4 days later. i went inside & waited 20 min till the movie began. The movie was......... hah, yeah, it was a waste of 50¢, except that scene with the crazy deer, that was pretty hilarious, i think the new movie relied too much on the other one to tell the story & rehashed the other ones crap to tell it too. Anyways, after that i walked back to the other mall. Walked around for a while, talked to gabriel in the nut stand for a while, he complained of how the only cd he owned was the 3rd SOAD & thats cause a mutal person we know named Hope gave it to him, so i gave him my back up copy of the new SOAD, lol. After that my friend from HS, David McKean came in & we just fucked around like we used to. He was buying his gf a graduation present, walked with him for a while & then he had to leave. Taslked with gabe somemore till i got bored & decided to call for a ride out of there. Passed to FYE to pick up a Black Daliah Murders CD i separated to buy that day. I paid for it & i asked the guy if i could order cds there & i told him i wanted an Aborted cd (best thing out of Belgium since their waffles), HOLY FUCKING SHIT they had a copy of the new release! Oh man, i almost had an orgasim holding that cd in my hands (not really, but you get the point). I walked to the food court to open my CDs when i saw whats his face, some guy from HS who asked me to be in his ban about a year ago but he was too lazy to organize anything. Well we talked, he had dropped out of school & he was going to play DDR (lol) & his cousin or whoever it was was looking at my cds. Her name was Sonya, she was pretty cool, hopefully i’ll bumb into them later. I made my way to the entrance where i got picked up
When i got home my cousins & his wife from mexico had come (Adrîan & Christina, Abé, & their parents) that night Lettie had invited us to go drink with Chupitos (blanka) & her husband. We got here & they didn’t card me like usual cause i just look that fucking old. To wrap this up we got 4 bottles of 32 oz Budlight bottles, each glass given to us held exactly 1/3rd of the beer in the bottle. I drank 4 glasses & some that Christina left cause she didn’t want it & gave it to me & a shot of something white that tasted like Vick’s Vapor rub before we left. We walked to a Kareeoke bar named Cheers, i was felling on the walk over there. I was given 5 more beers there this time 12 oz. bottles, i didn’t order them, i was just served them. I got up to use the little boys room & holy fucking shit i could feel it so bad. I was flailing around while i was in there & while i was washing my hands. I walked back to the table as non-chilantly as i could. The DJ then dnaced with Abé, i wanted to dance too, i would have sucked tho cause i was so increadibly hammered, i mean damn i figued i drank about 100oz of beer & a shot so i was way overdone. When we left outside i went all Dani Filth & fell on the side walk, well technically i didn’t fall cause i used my hands & knees to stop me. But yeah, i was fucked up bad. We then went to Lettie’s pad where i took a shot of Jose Cuervo Tequilla. I tried riding Lettie’s kid’s mini trycycle, fuck i must have looked funny. I mean really, a long haired 19 year old that about 6.4 riding a trycicle, it jsut got runnier when i fell over on my side. I was wearing a while shirt, but i really didn’t care cause i was pretty drunk. Then i went to the back to lay down on the weight bench. I layed down & the whole thing fell to the side with me on it, i was surprised that the weights didn’t land on my head. I was laughing so much. I wish i had somoen else i could be stupid with at the moment.I just spent time being stupid till we went home (Ardian & christina & me) at about 5am. From all the damn walking done in that day (& mostly because of the damn shoes) my feet were in pain for about 3 days, fun i suppose.
Saturday 5/21 - woke up with no hangover, but i still felt a buzz going on, like always. did some crap, later in the night we were supposed to go out again, but we never did. i smoked a little, another holucinating night. Adrian found out i was smoking cause i showed him the green, he didn’t seem to like it all that much, told him i was the lightst smoker i knew & that comforted him a little.
Sunday - that chick i said was going to call back did this day, i think. it was an ok day, didnt really do much else, just stayed home and talked to some people. My cousins left this day.
Wednesday - the chick i was talking to again came by again. We talked for a while & then smoked a J between us & we both got so messed up. She thought she broke her finger & i was all worried about her & all this other crap. She braught her cat with her, it was a pretty awsome looking cat. More things ensued, just us being stupid mostly. She then left where she would sneak out at night & get stuck at the beach smoking what was left over (not much) in her van. The van got stuck in the sand. She didn’t get home till 12noon the next day. She almost got arrested & is grounded for an indefinate amout of time, so it sucks to be her about now, lol.
Friday - Talked to miss Iowa (not really niss iowa, she just lives there) in the morining hours,it was much fun. Not really doing much now. Lette said she was going to help me get a job at her old place of enployment, its customer service or some crap like that. Sounds kinda fun i suppose. Anyways thats it for now.
Later people, dont really want to end this any particular way, but oh yeah, if any one wants to go to mexico with me & my padre (he’s going to a wedding & i’m going to go hang out (clubing or drinking or just to check out the rest of the city) with my cousins at monterrey, the most kick ass city in mexico), then just say so cause i really don't feel like being dumb all by myself... hmmm, really should go to that plaza where i jumped out of a moving bus to buy more crap. anyways, later people.