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i was too lazy to retype this...so i just put it in here from a conversation i had online...it's about my experience in becoming a believer in God
vts88: around mother's day, my mom kept wanting me to go to this 40 days of purpose thing the church she was going to was having...like all the evangelical chinese churches around here were doing it and what they were doing was the messages were based on this book that everyone received...the purpose driven life...and the whole idea of it all was to teach us about why we were created and our purpose...
vts88: anyway, i went in order to please my mom and plus i was a little interested...also during track at the time, i had actually been relying on God a bit...because i hurt my hamstring and i couldn't run...like the first thing i did was pray because i didn't know what else to do...it was a miracle...the day before the northshore meet, i couldn't even run the 200...then the day of the meet, i somehow ran, and they were good times...and my hamstring was fine....then shortly after that, i hurt my other hamstring somehow, so once again, i was all scared because it was coming so close to state...so i prayed again, because i didn't want to let down the team, since this might be the only chance at the state championship ihs would have for awhile...
vts88: somehow once again, i recovered...and although i was afraid all the time that my hamstrings would give out...they never did...it was amazing...but this wasn't the only thing that pushed me to believe in God
vts88: the people who preached at the service i went to at my mom's church were really good...they were funny and kept me listening so i began to become more interested...and i began to learn more and more about God....my brother had always told me, that sometimes you need to take a leap of faith in order to believe in God...and i just still couldn't do it...like i kept believing, that there just wasn't the kind of proof i was looking for
vts88: i started becoming actually eager to go to church...and so i was signed up for this youth camp at camp berachah down in kent/auburn that all of ecc was having...
vts88: so at this camp...it was like 3 weeks ago...i came not knowing what to expect...cuz i didn't know anybody, except like 2 or 3 people...so i was kinda scared...but i got to know my cabin mates and they were all real cool...guys like wayne zhou and kevin tsui (both ihs)...but anyway, when it came time for worship...i found myself getting that feeling again...i always get this feeling when i'm surrounded by the music and singing...that had always been my favorite part...but i digress heh...so the speaker was really cool, pastor wayne from toronto...and i really got into what he was telling us over those 3 days we were there...
vts88: on the last night there...it just came to me...like i figured it out for myself, how you don't need to know everything or anything in order to believe in God...sometimes there are things you just have to believe in, whether there's proof or not...so i had finally taken that leap of faith...and i was tested that night i think...like we had testimonials...and well...
vts88: no one was going up to speak...and for some reason, i felt the need to...but i'm deathly afraid of speaking in public like that...i have no trouble singing and playing guitar...but this was totally different...i started shaking, and the more i hesitated, the more afraid i became...still no one would go up...i knew i had to, i didn't know what i was going to say, but i had to do this...because pastor wayne had told us that sometimes we need to step out of our comfort zones in order to know God better...and this was definitely out of my comfort zone...so i got up and once i got up, i knew i couldn't turn back...so i walked over to the mic and in front of everyone...i told them about how nervous i was and how something had urged me to go up there...i was shaking so bad...but the more i spoke, the easier it was, and i told everyone about how just recently, i could finally say, that i fully believe in God....
vts88: around mother's day, my mom kept wanting me to go to this 40 days of purpose thing the church she was going to was having...like all the evangelical chinese churches around here were doing it and what they were doing was the messages were based on this book that everyone received...the purpose driven life...and the whole idea of it all was to teach us about why we were created and our purpose...
vts88: anyway, i went in order to please my mom and plus i was a little interested...also during track at the time, i had actually been relying on God a bit...because i hurt my hamstring and i couldn't run...like the first thing i did was pray because i didn't know what else to do...it was a miracle...the day before the northshore meet, i couldn't even run the 200...then the day of the meet, i somehow ran, and they were good times...and my hamstring was fine....then shortly after that, i hurt my other hamstring somehow, so once again, i was all scared because it was coming so close to state...so i prayed again, because i didn't want to let down the team, since this might be the only chance at the state championship ihs would have for awhile...
vts88: somehow once again, i recovered...and although i was afraid all the time that my hamstrings would give out...they never did...it was amazing...but this wasn't the only thing that pushed me to believe in God
vts88: the people who preached at the service i went to at my mom's church were really good...they were funny and kept me listening so i began to become more interested...and i began to learn more and more about God....my brother had always told me, that sometimes you need to take a leap of faith in order to believe in God...and i just still couldn't do it...like i kept believing, that there just wasn't the kind of proof i was looking for
vts88: i started becoming actually eager to go to church...and so i was signed up for this youth camp at camp berachah down in kent/auburn that all of ecc was having...
vts88: so at this camp...it was like 3 weeks ago...i came not knowing what to expect...cuz i didn't know anybody, except like 2 or 3 people...so i was kinda scared...but i got to know my cabin mates and they were all real cool...guys like wayne zhou and kevin tsui (both ihs)...but anyway, when it came time for worship...i found myself getting that feeling again...i always get this feeling when i'm surrounded by the music and singing...that had always been my favorite part...but i digress heh...so the speaker was really cool, pastor wayne from toronto...and i really got into what he was telling us over those 3 days we were there...
vts88: on the last night there...it just came to me...like i figured it out for myself, how you don't need to know everything or anything in order to believe in God...sometimes there are things you just have to believe in, whether there's proof or not...so i had finally taken that leap of faith...and i was tested that night i think...like we had testimonials...and well...
vts88: no one was going up to speak...and for some reason, i felt the need to...but i'm deathly afraid of speaking in public like that...i have no trouble singing and playing guitar...but this was totally different...i started shaking, and the more i hesitated, the more afraid i became...still no one would go up...i knew i had to, i didn't know what i was going to say, but i had to do this...because pastor wayne had told us that sometimes we need to step out of our comfort zones in order to know God better...and this was definitely out of my comfort zone...so i got up and once i got up, i knew i couldn't turn back...so i walked over to the mic and in front of everyone...i told them about how nervous i was and how something had urged me to go up there...i was shaking so bad...but the more i spoke, the easier it was, and i told everyone about how just recently, i could finally say, that i fully believe in God....