Initial B - Stage 2 "The Battle Within..."
Before I say anything else, Id like to point out that Mickey says...
Its been a while. Im tired of my old style, so Im gonna try this random thought thing and see how it turns out. Since my last update Ive done quite a bit of the same. Sometimes thats good, sometimes thats bad. I spend alot of my free time with the group, and I really wouldnt have it any other way. I love my friends. But then again, it would be nice to have someone a lil more than a friend. Today, me and Naz met up to buy all the tickets for the groups outing to see Spiderman 2 tonight. To kill time between our/his purchase of the tickets, we went hooka. Chewy and Sammy met up with us there soon after. After we were there for about an hour, this beautiful beautiful girl walks in. I mean like, wow. And she's all sitting two tables down from us and keeps looking at all of us. Sure, we're loud, were inconsiderate, and we're immature, but it didnt seem to bother her. But she always took a glance. When I got up to get a refill of my soda, I was looking right at her, and she was lookin at me. On my way back, I look back at her and I catch her on the upswing of a "check-out", if that makes any sense, heh. This is the first time in a long time where I seriously thought about walking up to a girl. And you know what I did? Not a damn thing. I thought about it. I even paused in the hallway almost next to her wanting to say something, but nothing came to my head. So I walked away with just one more glance, and she was smilin at me when I did it. Then, as I always do, I walked away. I'd just like to point out right now, if its not at all obvious to you:
I AM A WUSS
I know Ive said this before, but today it just keeps ringing in my head: I have never walked up to a girl. Theres always been some kind of special circumstance that gives me priveledge of meeting someone. We meet online, we have class together, we meet at a friends party, she and her parents are sleeping in the room across the hall from mine... theres always something. But when it comes to meeting a girl the regular way, Ive got nothing. I didnt get the memo or something. And Im tired of it. Im so fucking tired of it. To quote one of my favorite movies... "You are so money and you dont even know it. You're like a lion, and she's like a bunny. A little bunny. then theres you. Youve got these claws and these teeth. And you look at these teeth and these claws and you think to yourself 'How do I get this little bunny??' You have these huge teeth and claws and you still dont know how to get the bunny. Get the bunny Mikey. get the bunny..." (or something along those lines.) I guess thats why I like the movie Swingers as much as I do, I can identify with the main character cause he's just as afraid as I am, hehe. Im surrounded by love, and none of it involves me. The only way Im involved is watching it on a screen and crying that I dont have that. What i wouldnt give to have that. Im done venting. Im going to go watch my little car race now. Goodnight everyone.
-Jon B
Its been a while. Im tired of my old style, so Im gonna try this random thought thing and see how it turns out. Since my last update Ive done quite a bit of the same. Sometimes thats good, sometimes thats bad. I spend alot of my free time with the group, and I really wouldnt have it any other way. I love my friends. But then again, it would be nice to have someone a lil more than a friend. Today, me and Naz met up to buy all the tickets for the groups outing to see Spiderman 2 tonight. To kill time between our/his purchase of the tickets, we went hooka. Chewy and Sammy met up with us there soon after. After we were there for about an hour, this beautiful beautiful girl walks in. I mean like, wow. And she's all sitting two tables down from us and keeps looking at all of us. Sure, we're loud, were inconsiderate, and we're immature, but it didnt seem to bother her. But she always took a glance. When I got up to get a refill of my soda, I was looking right at her, and she was lookin at me. On my way back, I look back at her and I catch her on the upswing of a "check-out", if that makes any sense, heh. This is the first time in a long time where I seriously thought about walking up to a girl. And you know what I did? Not a damn thing. I thought about it. I even paused in the hallway almost next to her wanting to say something, but nothing came to my head. So I walked away with just one more glance, and she was smilin at me when I did it. Then, as I always do, I walked away. I'd just like to point out right now, if its not at all obvious to you:
I AM A WUSS
I know Ive said this before, but today it just keeps ringing in my head: I have never walked up to a girl. Theres always been some kind of special circumstance that gives me priveledge of meeting someone. We meet online, we have class together, we meet at a friends party, she and her parents are sleeping in the room across the hall from mine... theres always something. But when it comes to meeting a girl the regular way, Ive got nothing. I didnt get the memo or something. And Im tired of it. Im so fucking tired of it. To quote one of my favorite movies... "You are so money and you dont even know it. You're like a lion, and she's like a bunny. A little bunny. then theres you. Youve got these claws and these teeth. And you look at these teeth and these claws and you think to yourself 'How do I get this little bunny??' You have these huge teeth and claws and you still dont know how to get the bunny. Get the bunny Mikey. get the bunny..." (or something along those lines.) I guess thats why I like the movie Swingers as much as I do, I can identify with the main character cause he's just as afraid as I am, hehe. Im surrounded by love, and none of it involves me. The only way Im involved is watching it on a screen and crying that I dont have that. What i wouldnt give to have that. Im done venting. Im going to go watch my little car race now. Goodnight everyone.
-Jon B