Nothing special to tell...Im just bored!
A lovely face never does harm.....!
I´m single again.....
and what confuses me that much......I´m not sad about....
I want some more smiles here!
I´m in a pretty weird mood today....I actually DO write diary....but today its seemingly not the right place to get my shit out.....I even cant claim that is IS shit whats coming out of me.....
Today its just a day ...I´m pissed about which way it all ended....
I´m ok with the end, with the result.....but I think HE SHOULD HAVE TALKED TO ME!!!!
We´ve been together about 2 years an a half.....and we actually always were able to talk about everything...also about OUR concernes....one and a half month ago we´ve been invited to a b-day-party....I wanted to go there earlier the evening, cause I had to work next day in the morning......he didnt want to go that early....so we met there...and it became kinda strange right from the beginning ...we actually just kissed for saying "hello".....I had fun with many people which I didnt see for about 5 to 10years....I left...he didnt want to come with me,,,,,and since then I didnt hear from him, didnt see him....wrote a SMS next day...no reply.... I´m actually done.....especially cause of his non-reacting...but somehow it seems to bother me....come on...he´s 44 years old...I´m 43...and he´s behaving like kindergarden....
He should have the balls to tell me.....I didn´t do anything worse...actually I did NOTHING...
SOWHAT?? it´s a very unmature behaviour.....this stupid men- thinking...." When I dont reply/react...she´ll be smart enough ( at least that!!)to know whats up"....Or am I wrong here? I deserve that he´s talking to me!!! That´s the one and only thing that bothers me still....There´s no additional woman or man, that´s not the reason...
And I´ll do a fuck and start to think about my very own abilities to love again!
Probably he just wasn´t able to deal with "him"....
Now i´ve gotten my shit out....and feeling better finally.......there´s a big reason for another smile!
