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So I am working hardcore now..
This week I worked Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday and now I work tomorrow [[Saturday]].. that's like 30 hours I believe. This coming week I work Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday. =] 33 1/2 hour week.
Kevin got a job. He works at a oil changing place on Venoy and Michigan Ave.
Today I worked 3:30 to 10.. but I had to leave early because a about 9 o'clock.. I had my 3rd miscarriage. First time was a year ago.. 2nd time was the first night I stayed at Ally's like in January or February.. and then tonight. It fucking sucks but hey.. it just shows.. either I'm not ready or I'll never be able to have any. One way or the other.. I am really depressed now. I hate this shit.
Ally and I are trying to figure things out again. Kevin doesn't want us to date but I want to try this again. I love Ally.. I just don't wanna keep hurting her. I think what I may just do is to just keep being good friends with her and see where it goes from there. Who knows.. maybe she and I aren't meant to be but maybe.. we are. I am hoping eventually.. and eventually meaning soon.. I will figure this shit out.
Bad thing about it is.. I am like in love with Amanda Shaw. Shaw.. honey.. I love you. I have for a long time. I don't know how else to say it besides.. I wanna be with you more than anything. I don't know how you feel about me but I know how I feel about you. I really wanna go to your graduation party honey. Let me know what day it is and I will be sure to make it out there.
I'm not sure of what else to write.
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I love Kevin Michael Kocsis!
13 months this Sunday! 4-13-06
9 days left of school! Hells yeah dude!
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