this one's for aaron ;)....who said lj was dead?

[vsecret19]

ok so I decided to update to tell you all that things are going much better! on sunday night, it finally hit me how much i honestly love being at this school, and how amazing all the people are here. i feel like all the people i go to school with are exceptional, and i have so much to learn from them over the next for years. i admire you all you girls so much...and you have truly been my backbone these past few weeks when i've needed someone to lean on...but i'm proud to say, i think i'm ready to stand on my own. so..wow...that feels good to be able to say..and more importantly actually mean. i dunno....this week just helped to put a lot of things into perspective, like the fact that i'm getting back to being my old self again, and i like that. i'm proud of myself in the sense that i've had the strength to get myself back on track. i read two quotes that really hit home. the first one was " you can only be walked on while you're lying down..." the second was, "congratulations...you woke up breathing...you've got another chance" up until that point i'd been feeling like nothing was worth it anymore. then, i woke up. i realized that i have so much that is worth it. i am lucky enough to have so many people in my life that care so much about me, and have helped me through one of my most difficult times. i owe it not only to myself to pick myself back up, but also to them for working so hard to see me through. i love you guys more then anything, and i am going to get back on track. we are not going to go through this again, because the more i think about it, the more i realize that it was not just me that went through it...all the people close to me went through it as well. i have made it too easy for people who were not directly involved in the matter to swoop in and be heroes...well the truth is, i don't need one anymore. i've got me. i've got the people who stuck it out. being a friend isnt always pleasant. its not always something thats fun, and you guys have been there through the non-fun part,and that means more to me than anything. lol...but the no fun thing...that's gonna stop! we're living it up from now on! especially for my birthday! who's ready?! heck yesss!

i love you all! thanks for everything! xoxo.