life happened
it is been such a long time coming.
looking at myself two years ago when i just met you, i was such a mess. suffering from anxieties and panic attacks all the time.
my health care went down the hill. all that happened right before we started dating.
and you.. you were doing some SHIT. i mean every single conversation started with the phrase what the fuck are you doing with your life when you are so brilliant, smart and educated.
most of the times i am tired of the most of the people i know, including the closest friends of half of my life.
and it is not their fault. i just love being alone and do not have any kind of problem with it.
it has been over 2 years and i still want to see every weekend and still don't want to live with you.
you still drive me off the wall but without your pushing (which annoys the hell out of me) forward i'd be still that girl who was just lost.
no matter where we are going to be a year from now, i know you always be someone extremely special. i always will have that little place in my heart just for you.
differences are great i think! you can always learn from each other, it won't be easy, but what is?
i will be forever greatful looking back and see how big is the growth, how far we both have come and how it would be if you were not firm enough.
everything is fot the reason and i am just so happy with myself.
not because i am with someone, not because the place i am at, no.
i am happy because i still have space to grow, i still discover things about myself and i still don't measure my state of happiness by anything but me. BUT. without you i would have realize that a lot later.
so, thank you my dear friend and my lover. hope our journey continues - together or separate - because it never stops and we forever will be connected on the invisible level throughout the world.
love and peace,
your fad.
looking at myself two years ago when i just met you, i was such a mess. suffering from anxieties and panic attacks all the time.
my health care went down the hill. all that happened right before we started dating.
and you.. you were doing some SHIT. i mean every single conversation started with the phrase what the fuck are you doing with your life when you are so brilliant, smart and educated.
most of the times i am tired of the most of the people i know, including the closest friends of half of my life.
and it is not their fault. i just love being alone and do not have any kind of problem with it.
it has been over 2 years and i still want to see every weekend and still don't want to live with you.
you still drive me off the wall but without your pushing (which annoys the hell out of me) forward i'd be still that girl who was just lost.
no matter where we are going to be a year from now, i know you always be someone extremely special. i always will have that little place in my heart just for you.
differences are great i think! you can always learn from each other, it won't be easy, but what is?
i will be forever greatful looking back and see how big is the growth, how far we both have come and how it would be if you were not firm enough.
everything is fot the reason and i am just so happy with myself.
not because i am with someone, not because the place i am at, no.
i am happy because i still have space to grow, i still discover things about myself and i still don't measure my state of happiness by anything but me. BUT. without you i would have realize that a lot later.
so, thank you my dear friend and my lover. hope our journey continues - together or separate - because it never stops and we forever will be connected on the invisible level throughout the world.
love and peace,
your fad.