This Day Is Like Whoa
This whole week I've felt like this zombie just walking between the library and res, and still feeling like I've done no work in the end. I feel incredibly tired, but really motivated at the same time. For the first time this week, I've decided to start reading for my paper in Soc that's due next week. I feel really rusty with my writing skills, so I'm petrified to start writing. It also doesn't help when I e-mail my prof and he tells me information about what I should be doing, but as a reminder that "it is very late to do this now however" (in reference to me starting my paper now). I think I kinda already knew that and I don't need a poorly written e-mail to tell me that. Anyways, I feel like I can do this bitch now, so that's taken care of.
I'm still unsure about what I should be doing for living arrangements next year. I could live off campus (and there I start to question myself if I would be a good housemate, or if I could cope with the travelling distance between campus and the place) or I could live on campus again (and could I really do another year at St. Mike's res, even though I would be going to either Sorbara or Elmsley?). It's driving me crazy thinking about it, and I see both pros and cons either place. If I stay in res, a lot of the people this year (e.g. Anne, Kate and Sarah -> those are the ones that are for SURE leaving), won't be there. I don't want to feel isolated in my room away from the people that I absolutely love and adore. And if I also move out I don't want to get stir crazy and feel so isolated from campus and the outside world and end up hating the people that I live with or end up killing someone. I don't know what to do. The girls already know what they're doing and I don't know if I should hop on the house list with them, or go to overpriced res. AGH.
I wish that choices could be a whole lot easier. Someone just needs to make up my mind for these things. Honestly, when I picked which universities I was applying for in grade 12, I needed Cathy and my mom to sit down with me and talk it out rationally because I couldn't make up my mind. Even worse I didn't know what program I even wanted to apply for. Everything is based on picking between one thing or the other and it's driving me crazy. It's like picking between ice cream and cake - they're both good... Why can't you have them both?!?!
Speaking of cake and ice cream and all things nice, I could really go for some brownie right about... NOW.