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Im so angry at him....at billy....I shouldnt be, I haven't seen him in forever...but still..I'm angry.
The worst part? I'm not angry that he killed himself...no I'm not angry that he walked in front of a train. I'm angry that he did what I couldn't, no matter how many times i tried i still failed at that....guess im glad no one will read this cause i'd get ripped into
i dont want to be here anymore. IM NOT MEANT FOR THIS WORLD
I cant I just cant. Shannon was talking about how we all need to get together, all of us from ELS, how we can't let this happen again, and i just felt so guilty. I felt so awful, so....so pointless...I shouldnt have gotten this far, i know how he was feeling
god i wish i could have gone home for the funeral, maybe id feel better....I want out of this I want out of this feeling, I don't want to feel like i'm wasting my life anymore.
I need to figure this out. who the fuck am i. who am i. WHO AM I.....
The worst part? I'm not angry that he killed himself...no I'm not angry that he walked in front of a train. I'm angry that he did what I couldn't, no matter how many times i tried i still failed at that....guess im glad no one will read this cause i'd get ripped into
i dont want to be here anymore. IM NOT MEANT FOR THIS WORLD
I cant I just cant. Shannon was talking about how we all need to get together, all of us from ELS, how we can't let this happen again, and i just felt so guilty. I felt so awful, so....so pointless...I shouldnt have gotten this far, i know how he was feeling
god i wish i could have gone home for the funeral, maybe id feel better....I want out of this I want out of this feeling, I don't want to feel like i'm wasting my life anymore.
I need to figure this out. who the fuck am i. who am i. WHO AM I.....