Last night
So last night was fun...
Yesterday morning i woke up and felt horrible. my throught hurt like a bawd little monkey (as stewie would say) I made some calls to girls who either hurt me, or i hurt...none of which wanted to talk to me...no surrise. Kristen called me...i thought it would be best if we didnt hang out today, so i wasa jerk to her...a real jerk...so she went back to work, and i went to my bedroom to be emo, I put in Rent...hit random...and the first song that came on was "No day but today" in which mimi is trying to ask out Rodger ut he keeps pushing her away saying they an go out another day, and mimi sings no day but today. i called her back and asked if she would go to the park with me. We lied on my Ommm Blanket and talked about our problems, we talked about ricky, we talked Nick...who i dont like...we talked about devin (who I love, she is a great actress) so it was good to get out and talk things out with some one who cares. we are going out on Tuesday I think...we were talking about her prom and she said it suked for her, and i didnt go, so we decided to get dressed up and go to cafe bohemia, I am tinking about paying corey to come and play his guitar for us so we can dance together...lol, that would be fun.
yes, she is makin me happy, but she isnt ood for me...i know that. then again I am not good for me ethier. When i am with her, it feels like she is the answer to my prayers, but wen we are apart, i have my doubt. I dont doubt her, i doubt me. is it possible for me to make the right decission, it seems to me that the right decission would be to stop seeing girls all together, no more dating untill I can hold me own head up. but after last night, i know i have to go into the woods where nothing is clear.
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Dear Conforti's
~~~I am very glad to have meet you 2, you are both so ery caring and suportive...thank you for always being there for me, and everybody, i see you as a support beam in our circle of friends, everyone knows they can relly on ou two...loads of love...
Yesterday morning i woke up and felt horrible. my throught hurt like a bawd little monkey (as stewie would say) I made some calls to girls who either hurt me, or i hurt...none of which wanted to talk to me...no surrise. Kristen called me...i thought it would be best if we didnt hang out today, so i wasa jerk to her...a real jerk...so she went back to work, and i went to my bedroom to be emo, I put in Rent...hit random...and the first song that came on was "No day but today" in which mimi is trying to ask out Rodger ut he keeps pushing her away saying they an go out another day, and mimi sings no day but today. i called her back and asked if she would go to the park with me. We lied on my Ommm Blanket and talked about our problems, we talked about ricky, we talked Nick...who i dont like...we talked about devin (who I love, she is a great actress) so it was good to get out and talk things out with some one who cares. we are going out on Tuesday I think...we were talking about her prom and she said it suked for her, and i didnt go, so we decided to get dressed up and go to cafe bohemia, I am tinking about paying corey to come and play his guitar for us so we can dance together...lol, that would be fun.
yes, she is makin me happy, but she isnt ood for me...i know that. then again I am not good for me ethier. When i am with her, it feels like she is the answer to my prayers, but wen we are apart, i have my doubt. I dont doubt her, i doubt me. is it possible for me to make the right decission, it seems to me that the right decission would be to stop seeing girls all together, no more dating untill I can hold me own head up. but after last night, i know i have to go into the woods where nothing is clear.
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Dear Conforti's
~~~I am very glad to have meet you 2, you are both so ery caring and suportive...thank you for always being there for me, and everybody, i see you as a support beam in our circle of friends, everyone knows they can relly on ou two...loads of love...