the final good bye
this final goodbye,
is making me cry,
and making me wish,
it wouldn't happen.
this final goodbye,
is making me die.
and its tearing me up,
on the inside
so for this final goodbye,
and i promise this isnt a lie,
i'd like to say, "i love you"
one last final time.
(dedicated to my dearest jonathan)
i have become totally numb. the only thing i feel at this moment is the burning of my eyes and cheeks. i have been crying for the past hour and a half on and off. not only because of jonathan, but everything. here is part of my convorsation with geoff.
insanelikelove (10:35:49 PM): AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
insanelikelove (10:35:59 PM): i'm just so ahhhhh gjhdsgjkdfsgjkgjkgjkgjkgjkgjkgjkgjksefjkstadghjtu
insanelikelove (10:36:01 PM): FUCK
MonsieurVain (10:37:48 PM): i know
insanelikelove (10:38:57 PM): no you dont know
insanelikelove (10:38:59 PM): sorry but you dont
insanelikelove (10:39:15 PM): not right now you dont
MonsieurVain (10:39:18 PM): I didn't mean that
insanelikelove (10:39:31 PM): so much shit is fucking going on all the sudden and now i'm fucking crying
MonsieurVain (10:39:42 PM): no
MonsieurVain (10:39:43 PM): don't
MonsieurVain (10:39:54 PM): sadness was what is going to be prevented
insanelikelove (10:39:55 PM): i'll stop when my best friend moves back ok
MonsieurVain (10:40:10 PM): :-(
insanelikelove (10:40:15 PM): and my other one isn't in europe
insanelikelove (10:40:21 PM): and my sister isnt gone
MonsieurVain (10:40:31 PM): :-(
insanelikelove (10:40:36 PM): and the guy i like and his sister...my friends arent in alaska
insanelikelove (10:40:52 PM): and the guy i know more about than anyone stops ignoring me
insanelikelove (10:41:03 PM): and the fucker goes away
insanelikelove (10:41:09 PM): and everything is ok again
insanelikelove (10:41:13 PM): then i'll stop
insanelikelove (10:41:15 PM): but not now
MonsieurVain (10:41:58 PM): you need rest
insanelikelove (10:42:23 PM): it doesnt make it go away
MonsieurVain (10:42:30 PM): I know
MonsieurVain (10:42:48 PM): things will get better
i'm done...i love you...night
is making me cry,
and making me wish,
it wouldn't happen.
this final goodbye,
is making me die.
and its tearing me up,
on the inside
so for this final goodbye,
and i promise this isnt a lie,
i'd like to say, "i love you"
one last final time.
(dedicated to my dearest jonathan)
i have become totally numb. the only thing i feel at this moment is the burning of my eyes and cheeks. i have been crying for the past hour and a half on and off. not only because of jonathan, but everything. here is part of my convorsation with geoff.
insanelikelove (10:35:49 PM): AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
insanelikelove (10:35:59 PM): i'm just so ahhhhh gjhdsgjkdfsgjkgjkgjkgjkgjkgjkgjkgjksefjkstadghjtu
insanelikelove (10:36:01 PM): FUCK
MonsieurVain (10:37:48 PM): i know
insanelikelove (10:38:57 PM): no you dont know
insanelikelove (10:38:59 PM): sorry but you dont
insanelikelove (10:39:15 PM): not right now you dont
MonsieurVain (10:39:18 PM): I didn't mean that
insanelikelove (10:39:31 PM): so much shit is fucking going on all the sudden and now i'm fucking crying
MonsieurVain (10:39:42 PM): no
MonsieurVain (10:39:43 PM): don't
MonsieurVain (10:39:54 PM): sadness was what is going to be prevented
insanelikelove (10:39:55 PM): i'll stop when my best friend moves back ok
MonsieurVain (10:40:10 PM): :-(
insanelikelove (10:40:15 PM): and my other one isn't in europe
insanelikelove (10:40:21 PM): and my sister isnt gone
MonsieurVain (10:40:31 PM): :-(
insanelikelove (10:40:36 PM): and the guy i like and his sister...my friends arent in alaska
insanelikelove (10:40:52 PM): and the guy i know more about than anyone stops ignoring me
insanelikelove (10:41:03 PM): and the fucker goes away
insanelikelove (10:41:09 PM): and everything is ok again
insanelikelove (10:41:13 PM): then i'll stop
insanelikelove (10:41:15 PM): but not now
MonsieurVain (10:41:58 PM): you need rest
insanelikelove (10:42:23 PM): it doesnt make it go away
MonsieurVain (10:42:30 PM): I know
MonsieurVain (10:42:48 PM): things will get better
i'm done...i love you...night