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there are times when I'm so sure I can get it done, that I can juggle one more thing and get it to work. than the realization that I fucked it up. I dropped the ball.
Sometimes when that happens I get this brief panic attack. I run around thinking I still have time to fix it when in reality its already too late.
I have to come to terms with it being too late and move on.
I've gotten better about it over the years, meditation, magick, etc., have all helped me to deal with that panic attack.
I've always told students and clients that its not about suppressing emotions that arise unexpectedly. Its about managing them so they don't fly out of control.
I'm proud to say that I kept the burst of energy that arose from this to a mere 5 minutes.
Its going to happen. I just made sure it didn't dominate my day or my thinking. I simply dealt with it and the consequences.
Will I drop another ball in the future? probably. Will I have another episode of running around trying to fix it, even though its too late? probably. Will I make sure its as short as this one was. Damn yes I will.
I don't have these often but when I do I'm glad that in the end I'm still in charge. Thanks for listening.
Sometimes when that happens I get this brief panic attack. I run around thinking I still have time to fix it when in reality its already too late.
I have to come to terms with it being too late and move on.
I've gotten better about it over the years, meditation, magick, etc., have all helped me to deal with that panic attack.
I've always told students and clients that its not about suppressing emotions that arise unexpectedly. Its about managing them so they don't fly out of control.
I'm proud to say that I kept the burst of energy that arose from this to a mere 5 minutes.
Its going to happen. I just made sure it didn't dominate my day or my thinking. I simply dealt with it and the consequences.
Will I drop another ball in the future? probably. Will I have another episode of running around trying to fix it, even though its too late? probably. Will I make sure its as short as this one was. Damn yes I will.
I don't have these often but when I do I'm glad that in the end I'm still in charge. Thanks for listening.