christmas is changing?
i'll admit it- Christmas has officially lost its magic. i'm 18 now and cant pretend like i used to and it makes me sad. but, the cool thing is, we get to start our own Christmases soon, with our kids, and our own parties. but for now, we're stuck in that wierd "too old for santa & make-believe, and too young for our very own Christmas". that's basically my whole life right now, "too old, and too young". it's kind of not cool at all.
my parents are helping me buy a laptop for Christmas, and they also got me things only they would know i secretely wanted. my sister gave me christmas pudding (which was gross.. but oh well) & and my mom bought me skeleton keys and sweaters.. cute!
sidenote: i went to the mall christmas eve (big mistake) and got completely overwhelmed and upset and realized how unhappy i was in that kind of envoirnment. not that shopping is bad, or that i dont like it.. i just wanted to be somewhere else in the world. it felt like a "2nd best thing" & i wanted to be somewhere overseas with simple people and a simple life. there's more to life than scrounging around and flipping out about presents to give to people on one day of the year.. half of which they'll probably return anyways. i even get caught up in that.. its hard not too! but this is where i am.. and i need to be happy where i am cause God's put me here for the time being.
maybe i just need a change of scenary... and a huge adventure.
my parents are helping me buy a laptop for Christmas, and they also got me things only they would know i secretely wanted. my sister gave me christmas pudding (which was gross.. but oh well) & and my mom bought me skeleton keys and sweaters.. cute!
sidenote: i went to the mall christmas eve (big mistake) and got completely overwhelmed and upset and realized how unhappy i was in that kind of envoirnment. not that shopping is bad, or that i dont like it.. i just wanted to be somewhere else in the world. it felt like a "2nd best thing" & i wanted to be somewhere overseas with simple people and a simple life. there's more to life than scrounging around and flipping out about presents to give to people on one day of the year.. half of which they'll probably return anyways. i even get caught up in that.. its hard not too! but this is where i am.. and i need to be happy where i am cause God's put me here for the time being.
maybe i just need a change of scenary... and a huge adventure.