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Everything Meme. Have at me with Relationship, First Impressions, Hot or Not, Essay, Please Ramble About This At Me, Explain Your Thoughts on Their Thoughts, You Should Jump Me, App My Canon and whatever you want to ask for.Especially "Please Ramble About This At Me", I love that one. XD

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Heat-sera-serph

OKAY ONCE UPON A TIME I WROTE this essay wow like a year ago. Anyway. I'm too lazy to reread it but I'll assume it explains a lot of basic stuff even if some stuff's changed so I don't ramble for another 8000 words.

But basically:

Heat loev Sera but believe he shouldn't love Sera; he feels... intrusive a lot of times? When he's trying to... just express himself or get close, he feels more and more like he's intruding somehow. I THINK THEY ARE AWKWARD AND CUTE but my shipping is... I DON'T THINK THEY'LL EVER BE PERFECT OR LEARN TO FIT RIGHT you know? XD Heat is a big dumb lunk. Actually, I kind of want to write that for all my answers to the relationship thing: Heat. He's a big dumb lunk. End of essay.

HEAT/SERPH
Heat finds Serph... way easier in some ways than Sera. SERPH IS UNCOMPLICATED. Serph *read romance novels* because he was introduced to the idea that Heat might be interested in him and WANTED TO LEARN WHAT THAT ENTAILED OK. That's not complicated, that's just kind of dorky and stupid.

Heat's been coming to rely on Serph a lot for emotional support, and he feels lame about that -- and me as a player, I want to shake that up a bit. He does tend to go "SERRRPH I'M INSECURE ABOUT SERA LET's GO HUNTING" which is fun, but we need some awkwardness. Maybe about penises I dunno. Or I can see you guys dating and get ALL WEIRD ABOUT IT. And the thing with Kuhn is likely to shake things up. So I'm not worried but I intend to poke at it a bit, because he's getting TOO COMFORTABLE with Serph, which is great except that a lot of times his comfort is a facade covering up a lot of insecurity and weirdness, and I'm preeeeeeeetty sure it is here too.

SERPH/HEAT/SERA

Heat doesn't think it can happen, and on a lot of levels, doesn't WANT it to happen. Right now, when it's three separate groups, it's SUPER AWKWARD but at the same time, his jealousy is... a little lower. If it's right there, in his face, if he can't dodge the comparisons he'll be makeing, he'll fuck everything up and he knows it. He's... afraid. He wants to be happy with them, he wants THEM to be happy, but he is SUCH A FUCKUP. And he is just... terrified about ruining things. Not for himself; he's fine with ruining things for himself. In fact, he kind of craves it, because then it's as low as he's gonna get. But he's terrified about ruining things for them.

He also has nooo idea what Sera thinks about it. HE DOESN'T DARE GUESS. He is terrified and the answer's depressing no matter WHAT way she feels about it.

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Y-yeah I. I THINK THAT THEY WILL TAKE LONGER TO BECOME REALLY COMFORTABLE WITH ONE ANOTHER THAN CAMP REALLY GIVES US SCOPE FOR. Another decade or something, idk. Because honestly, I think it would take... well, Heat would either have to grow up enough to learn to be smooth and nonabrasive, or Sera would have to grow up to take all of the emotional complexities that surround them in stride and with a little bit of amusement. And though they've both grown so much as characters, either of those things is going to take so long. So very loooong. I guess at least we'll never be comfortable. ALL OF OUR INSECURITY AND WEIRDNESS IS IN THE OPEN.

Sera ships Heat/Serph in a way but never talks about it. IT'S KIND OF FUNNY. And I've always been fascinated by the fact that Serph's comfort with Sera and Serph's comfort with Heat fills a lot of the same needs for them, but in such different ways.

Serph/Heat/Sera IS NOT EVEN ON THE TABLE. She has no opinion on it, she doesn't think about it. SERIOUSLY CONFRONTED WITH IT she would probably go "..........um" a lot. SHE HAS NO CLUE HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THAT, maybe Heat is wise to be terrified.

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AND IN THE MEANTIME THEY CAN FAIL HORRIBLY A LOT. I like it when they do that. :|b

HAHA seriously? That's interesting.

HEAT WILL NEVER PUT IT ON THE TABLE. Cielo might, though. He did before she got to camp. :|b