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I need to leave the house
I absolutely have to do this, I have to go to the bank
I have to go by myself, It'll be closed when Paul gets out of work
It's walking distance
Intellectually, I know I'm currently sitting in a very nice little flat, in a well to do area of an exciting modern city, with my laptop, and my constant internet access, and my coffee. And all i need to do is put on my shoes and jacket, go down, and walk to the bank and back, it's even a lovely sunny day.
Some how though, emotionally i'm trapped in a tiny box, suspended 5 stories above the ground. And encircled completely by a ring of traffic, cars, doubledecker buses, taxis, police sirens. Outside that is a ring of people shouting, and bustling in and out of the shops, all piling on the bus if I want to get on, jostling. Some have dogs.
And it's very frustrating, because actually, I hate being indoors.
This is all very silly.
I've gone completely mad.
I absolutely have to do this, I have to go to the bank
I have to go by myself, It'll be closed when Paul gets out of work
It's walking distance
Intellectually, I know I'm currently sitting in a very nice little flat, in a well to do area of an exciting modern city, with my laptop, and my constant internet access, and my coffee. And all i need to do is put on my shoes and jacket, go down, and walk to the bank and back, it's even a lovely sunny day.
Some how though, emotionally i'm trapped in a tiny box, suspended 5 stories above the ground. And encircled completely by a ring of traffic, cars, doubledecker buses, taxis, police sirens. Outside that is a ring of people shouting, and bustling in and out of the shops, all piling on the bus if I want to get on, jostling. Some have dogs.
And it's very frustrating, because actually, I hate being indoors.
This is all very silly.
I've gone completely mad.