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whoa i havent wrote in here in a long time last week it was weird i was talkin to one of my close homies right then like i was like outta knowwhere i was like dam dood im afraid of school and life and like my freindfs like i told u dood and like this was noline and it was like 1:00 and thne like i keept thinking about it and like i kinda felt tears and stuff hah w/e well today was weird had band practice at like 8:00PM till like 10PM and its weird i like my band that im in but i wanna be in another band too and elton say that he wants to quit i was like wtf it was becuz we're not have ne "progress" wtf deos he mean music takes time he have music but we're just iono w/e well then i called my baby which i miss everyday dam i hella miss her :D our phone convo was "fun" hahah then later on i got online and somthing happen to my closest freind. i was always there to listen and help her out and i always had somthing to say but this time i didnt have nething. it really bothered me alot i was feeling bad for her too.i dont know wat to do today and eysterday i felt really happy and theres allways things happening in my life i dont get it. i dont understand how i can be really happy when almost everythings going wrong. i dont feel sad and stuff to but i put those aside and i contradict myself alot and i dont know it cuz i dont think and now that i see it maybe im not happy sigh dont get it nemore but i forgot about everything and just know the goodthings i have like im living and i have a family and a lovely girl which i love so much i dont say it to her cuz i dont wat it to be words that will be played out but then again it is a word so i dont need to know if i love her or not cuz my feeling dosent need to be called love or like or labeled nething cuz its the best thing to feel. i hope it dosent go. ill just put those sad feelings aside and pull em out when i relaly need to haha w/e haha its funny this entry starts out talkin abbout the day to my feelings haha w/e this this is for w/e haha aite ill write more in here more often