jealous- you may not want to read this... dont say i didnt warn u

[vonstar603]

i am jealou of other people and their boyfriends. they have such good relatinships but then again clint and i do. We have never been normal so i shouldnt expect it but soemties i still do. So today is Sunday and i awlays dread Sundays bc usually the next day is schoool and i fill with dread but now im not feeling so bad bc i have 2 more weeks off and since college started i havent felt dread at all!! i just need to get out of my bad feelings here. im soo happy to come home but then my vices come to haunt me and there is only so much i ca handle. ive een falling back in to my senior routine and i need to stop! i know its bad for me but its teh only way i can deal! it hurts and im scared and im alone. people who are reading this dont feel bad!! i jsut need to write down my feelings
i would make this private if i knew how too.everytime i hit private it isnt.. apparently siobhan and technology dont work!! aahahah phew feeling fat gained 10lbs!!! fat ass thanks!
love u all!