hey old friend.
on adderall again. its 5:41am, ive probably been on facebook for 4 hours stalking.
I need to start figuring out a direction for myself.
I am overworked and unappreciated but as I come in terms with it, that's life at the moment. Some good things come out of bad scenarios, !)meeting and knowing adam 2)meeting other influential people in my life like reuniting with Sam and hanging out with her friends aka Davis and Steve.
I've been pretty upset with myself lately, not taking caring my body as I use to. I've been too tired. I would of thought I've lost some weight by now but all in good time.
The most annoying and non changeable component of why I am not happy at the moment is my mother. She wakes up at the ass crack of dawn waking me with her movements when she comes in my room to straighten things that can be taken care of when I'm awake. She constantly bickers because I'm the only one at the house therefore I have to listen to her blabber more than anyone. Our relationship is not a good mother and daughter. I do not respect her because she does not listen to me.
My job is kinda of sucking too. I'm not in a healthy happy place but I have a job and I'm getting laid lol. A part of me wants me to say "fuck it." I'm sure I can get another job that suits me better...and it's getting to the point where I should do that. Rams Head destroys any joy I've had and I realize that I don't need this negative energy. I'm going to give it a month, see where it goes.
I need to start figuring out a direction for myself.
I am overworked and unappreciated but as I come in terms with it, that's life at the moment. Some good things come out of bad scenarios, !)meeting and knowing adam 2)meeting other influential people in my life like reuniting with Sam and hanging out with her friends aka Davis and Steve.
I've been pretty upset with myself lately, not taking caring my body as I use to. I've been too tired. I would of thought I've lost some weight by now but all in good time.
The most annoying and non changeable component of why I am not happy at the moment is my mother. She wakes up at the ass crack of dawn waking me with her movements when she comes in my room to straighten things that can be taken care of when I'm awake. She constantly bickers because I'm the only one at the house therefore I have to listen to her blabber more than anyone. Our relationship is not a good mother and daughter. I do not respect her because she does not listen to me.
My job is kinda of sucking too. I'm not in a healthy happy place but I have a job and I'm getting laid lol. A part of me wants me to say "fuck it." I'm sure I can get another job that suits me better...and it's getting to the point where I should do that. Rams Head destroys any joy I've had and I realize that I don't need this negative energy. I'm going to give it a month, see where it goes.