Shades of Aubergine/Kitchen Knives

[vondark]

i think maybe 2000??? 1999 maybe


so that was the end my friend was it?
in a week or so you would have been 21
but when alls said and done
does the moon still light the heavens at night?

the wind is crisp-don't capsize
if the water weren't so choppy
your face weren't so blue and waxy
i could still feel young

sunlight on my shoulders
with a dog at my heels i kiss contentment
it's a butterfly caught in a spider web
but still so beautiful and the web sparkles
covered in dew like jewels, covered in you
oh, the flowers, the crystal kisses
watch out for the strong wishes

stream of consciousness let me not
interrupt a thought with a format
a comma a full stop
does energy have a grammar
does it matter

some words that still not quite fit to the shape or sound
describe the imaginary
making solid intangibility
letting loose fantasy real or more real
i know the unicorn
it told me my secret name in faire
then laughing danced away

midnight cats in mourning
ladies with sharp silver brooches
pointed just below the collarbone
kitchen knifes shades of aubergine

one of the last things i wrote you was that i believed in you
one of the last things you wrote me was to pray for you
and i prayed but it was too late
still cry sometimes ‘cos you're never even gonna turn 20
we're never gonna have fun again
and there is no merciful god - that's proof