/complaining
The worst thing about being an extremely critical reader who's also a writer: when you get negative feedback, half the time you agree with it.
I'm kind of emotionally remedial; I'm only now getting the hang of experiencing negative emotions without pointedly looking the other way, humming loudly, and pretending they don't exist. That is to say: I don't really have effective coping skills yet. Noticing I'm having the emotion and just hanging out with it is as far as I've gotten, and even that's pretty hit or miss.
It means that right now, sometimes my feelings boss me the heck around.
What I'm trying to say is that flame reviews shouldn't bother me, I know they shouldn't, intellectually I'm all kinds of mature, but emotionally I'm kind of a floundering moron who sulked and played violent video games all day to work out her insecurity.
There are a lot of things like this, situations where I know the appropriate, sane reaction and still can't produce it. Maybe the moral of this story is that you can't bully yourself into emotional maturity? Or maybe it's 'fuck this, forget it, I'm going back to Devil May Cry and I will come out when I am immune to bad feelings of every kind'.