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I had my very first panic attack. I feel like a ticking time bomb right now.
I was driving and looked at the necklace my aunt had made. And I realized I will never ever be able to talk to her again. I'll never see her again. I started freaking the fuck out and started hyperventilating. Then it got to the point where I couldn't hardly breathe. I was on the verge of crying, but couldn't cuz I was in shock. All these deaths are finally hitting me, and it's taking a worse tole than I could have ever thought possible. I don't want to see or talk to anyone. Thankfully it hasn't been effecting my work in school. If anything, it's giving me a release.
Hopefully this will all heal and go away with time. I thought I was stronger than this.
I was driving and looked at the necklace my aunt had made. And I realized I will never ever be able to talk to her again. I'll never see her again. I started freaking the fuck out and started hyperventilating. Then it got to the point where I couldn't hardly breathe. I was on the verge of crying, but couldn't cuz I was in shock. All these deaths are finally hitting me, and it's taking a worse tole than I could have ever thought possible. I don't want to see or talk to anyone. Thankfully it hasn't been effecting my work in school. If anything, it's giving me a release.
Hopefully this will all heal and go away with time. I thought I was stronger than this.