Drugs
Wow, how stupid, I stop writing and I am confronted with a chat room invite. Of course I go in, knowing that I'll have to see Riley in there..I don't really feel like I want do it..so well I minimize it..and when I decide to pay attention I hear Rick lying. He lies all the time..I'm beginning to believe it's a compulsion..He's talking about being on PCP. Well I hate drugs, and I've never done any at all..and I mean ANY. This is why I hate the internet so much..you can't tell a damn fucking thing..who's real who's not..but it's the same in real life..so it doesn't matter..I just hate being lied to..call me stupid but that's one of the worst things that can happen to me. I have so many things to say about everyone in there..I really don't think I should put some of it in her because I want this to be public...I'm still feeling so shitty about Roxan, but you know that won't change in a few minutes..bleh I remember last night my friend talking to his girlfriend..and she got mad at him for nothing...it reminded me and scared me about what could have happened with Roxan..I can't get my mind off of this..I wish I knew how to feel better..even killing people in GTA: Vice City hasn't helped much...this is all bothering me and I wonder when I'll just give up and sleep, or if I can sleep at all without Roxan being here..I don't know..maybe she doesn't love me anymore..or she just doesn't care...she's like a drug... Tomorrow is going to be boring, Mark is still not back and well I miss him more than ever. It feels like a fucking month since I've seen him..I think I'll nail him to my wall when he gets back..I have nothing to do really without him...I wish I had more intersting entrys but I'm so tired..I haven't slept so I can't really think...well atleast these aren't so dark...and depressing..because I'm not..and I'm still annoyed by all of this drug talk...I HATE THEM..END OF FUCKING DISCUSSION..and I still can't edit it to put in the pictures I want..