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tonight i apologized to someone of whom i knew nothing of.
i talked poorly of the man yet i didn't even know his last name, i'm surprised i knew even his first.
after talking tonight with a good friend [though i realized the poor nature of the action as i committed it], i realized it was not the person i normally am, nor the person i want to be.
i was subconsciously jealous over a girl who i once dated.
i talked as if i hated the person, yet i had no apparent reason.
the person actually is supposed to be a very genuine person, something that isn't too common i've learned.
i discover he had caught wind of this, and i felt it to be a moral imperative to apologize to him.
ive realized that recently i have had the tendency to not be myself, but rather someone else who has been influenced [not by choice] by others in a negative way.
now that ive got the problem centered in the crosshairs, i can fix it.
back to the old self.
feels good.
i talked poorly of the man yet i didn't even know his last name, i'm surprised i knew even his first.
after talking tonight with a good friend [though i realized the poor nature of the action as i committed it], i realized it was not the person i normally am, nor the person i want to be.
i was subconsciously jealous over a girl who i once dated.
i talked as if i hated the person, yet i had no apparent reason.
the person actually is supposed to be a very genuine person, something that isn't too common i've learned.
i discover he had caught wind of this, and i felt it to be a moral imperative to apologize to him.
ive realized that recently i have had the tendency to not be myself, but rather someone else who has been influenced [not by choice] by others in a negative way.
now that ive got the problem centered in the crosshairs, i can fix it.
back to the old self.
feels good.