May 16, 2004 05:07
i cant sleep.
strangely too much on the mind.
i took a nap earlier this evening, maybe thats why.
school is over.
i havent checked my grades yet.
i dont give a shit.
im staying in richmond over the summer.
this is new news as of friday.
i thought my parents were making me stay at home this summer, but once i brought it up to my mom that my life is in richmond and that there isnt much left at home, she quickly supported me as if there were never plans of me staying at home.
williamsburg tomorrow.
we have a show at the beach:
May 16th
Huby's Va. Beach
HIGH STAKES, Is This Real? The End of the Universe, Zombie Squad
6:30pm
$5
i dont like it when amazing things are dangled in front of me, and then quickly pulled away, as if they were teasing me.
though ive spent the last few days with this in mind, tonight showed hope.
its nerve wrecking.
the other week held nights that summed up the reason we remain alive.
how can one forget about them?
or was the happiness one-sided?
i hope this isnt a ghost coming back to haunt me.
dare i say... my own poison coming back to me.
the summer holds opportunities.
ill try to stay positive, optimistic, and hopeful.
because this time, everything is different.
trust me.