Aug 09, 2010 13:19
When planning my weekend, I did not take into account the Nupagen injections that I was supposed to receive. I missed two of my injections and because of this, this has set back the date of the bone marrow collection date.
The child whom I am donating my stem cells to has already started the process of destroying his immune system in order to receive my cells.
Because of my mistake, the child will have to survive for two days longer in order to receive my donation. Two days on his own power.
I'm incredibly distressed because it was from my mistakes that this child has to endure such hardships. Potentially, my mistake may have killed him.
I'm trying to be hopeful that he will be able to survive, but because of recent events, I can't help but see the Grim Reaper whenever I close my eyes.
...please grant him the strength to carry on. Not for myself, but for his parents and everything that he could aspire to be. Please let his soul find a way to thrive in this world. He's already had to live through so much pain. Please don't take him away when he's almost there.