darkness

[volsrock2004]

im aitting at home tonight with this strange feeling of emptiness and numbness. i got nothin left now i gave all i had to the one i thought would stick around for a while but that fell apart as quickly as it started. im just irritated at how we ended. of course we r friends bc i strongly believe in that but friday things were very weird like she was annoyed by my presence. also she got another job which is good i suppose but what gets me is that she said she had too much strsss? doesnt make sense to me if i was stressed the last thing i would do is add another job on top of the one i have already. i dont think she told me the real reason, i wish she would. plus her friend decided to make things worse by making an uncalled for comment about me which stated that if i knew how to treat women maybe i would still have one. needless to say that didnt make me happy at all. but anyways i hung out with jeff and justine tonight it was fun we went to a haunted house on barrett which was very entertaining by thw way and then we went to the park in her neighborhood for like 15 minutes until she had to go home. so life is kinda suckin bad right now and to make it worse i dont have my best friend here to talk to and hang out with she always makes me feel better. im just tired of things not workin out for me its very frustrating. i started to like a couple of girls but i hardly think they would ever like me back so another lost cause. i guess i will just...... well at this point im at a loss as to what i should do now.

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