On dependence, needs and wants
I seriously don't know what to do with my life. It's like I'm in a maze, I know where to go, but I don't know how to get there. I'm forever stuck in this state of balancing the needs and the wants. I want to go abroad, and stay there (for a while, maybe not permanently, but see.. I'm not really sure). I want a career shift, but I don't know if I want it NOW. You see, things will be way way simpler if I don't have people depending on me, and all I gotta think of is myself. But life for me, is not like that. I will always ALWAYS think of other people (my family in particular), because they depend on me. I have nothing against it really, it's just that sometimes, I can't help but imagine what it would be like if I was living on my own. I don't even know if I can take that, either. See? I'm confused. Haha.