we belong together....
I cannot believe how fast life goes by when you feel like it's going so slow. I can't get rid of this feeling all the time that feels like im always ina rush. A sort of rush that i feel as though everything is going too impossibly well and it can't manage to stay this way for long.
I wake up feeling like i'm holding my breath. Because at any given moment, it can change. Being ,honestly, in love, is unexplainable. sure, we're young, naive, even stupid. but from my heart, it's more than real. It's not caring what anyone else is thinking becuz all u want is to steal a smile, or a laugh, or a kiss. it's been over 14months now and I still panic when my phone rings with his ID. But it's also torture. In a hopeless romantic sense. I only feel like I want to have every moment I can with him. every moment i cant, thats the torture. Because every moment, even fights or pure silence, are the most delicate and perfect moments i will ever ask for.
Love is something that u dream of your whole life. You expect it to be predictable like u dream, and always perfect. Always full of kisses, and surprises, but the truth is, love is how u handle it. I've realized you can choose how much u give to someone, love is scary. Becuz it's only really real when u give him your whole heart. and PRAY to God he doesnt break it. that revelation is more than terrifying. I will never regret any moment. Love isn't half-hearted.
i have no idea where that came from. but I needed to put it down.
Life is flying by. We finally finished all college transcripts. most applications. the ones im delaying are ones i really don't care about anywayz.
Sent in the most important one. and now i sit here, like i said, holding my breath. I think that if u know which school im talking about u know why im so nervous.
It can't be real. It's the blasted intuition that I'm always so "blessed" with. And it's telling me that it can't be possible. It just can't. Like I've said before, part of growing up is realizing we don't always get what we want. It's hard to swallow tho, I want this more than i've ever wanted anything.IN MY LIFE.I just want that letter. AAAAAAH.
IGA.o.IGA. It seems that most of our life sentences are being served there.It seems that drama isn't in full force at the moment. then again, maybe I'm just out of the loop. W/E. all the boys are leaving towards sumemr, which in turn means,faces will be replaced.and new faces are in order. jon will be forgotten. cashiers will leave, we will be forgotten. I think we should right a book. or have like , an initiation like sororities do, or somezing. then the alumni of NFS will always be known. I jsut realized something. If IGA was my college experience, (in terms of years) I would now be a senior. Wow i can only imagine how fast college will go.... will the freshmen of Iga have vintage stories? will they cling to each other like family as we did? will they mock and name customers as well as we? no. becuz we are the stepping stones of all employees to come....poor things.
Today is Delisheena's bday. and as i sit here trying to recall when and who actually gave her that name in the first place, im getting angry that i cannot remember. hm. Happy 22nd DELISHE!
I randomly went and bought TRISTAN & ISOLDE today. I knew i would love it at first glance. and i was right. although it's completely Romeo and Juliet, it's great. MAKES ya cry. makes ya wince. just enuf gore to please the guy and o, enuf love to make u want him. very a-typical movie. but, I loved it. Loved it. and o. HOW could i forget..LAURA...tristan is played by the one and only - JAMES FRANCO. u wont be disapointed.
The Interns (insert angels singing heavenly songs here) are no more. 1999-2006. RIP. after long consideration, and no namely blame, they are calling it quits. I almost cried. Tony was OSO polite, but i sensed the choke in his voice. (granted it was instant messager) but alas. this sux. BAD. here's to skanking our butts off, making singing fools of ourselves, and getting hit on? by random intern..?groupies? CHEERS.
I really have nothin to say, which is evident by the massive essay before this statement. The only noise in my house is the dog eating. did i mention, i might steal sheenas puppy. jk. I want a yorky. bradley promised me one when he's making his pharmacy money.I hope time flies faster than it is right now. he's being suspicious right now. planning something for prom, sneaking around calling my parents when he thinks i don't know. that boy. he almost slipped today. and my parents are so tight lipped i cant get ANYTHING out of them. did i mention, im VERY impatient. patience is not one of my strong points. im so suspicious right now. this is why im posting. I cant sleep. argh!
Indians Game with the LOVE and the rents. sorry for the rhetoric. but hey, isn't that was lj is for?!
peace / love / and Suspicion.......*raised eyebrow*
mackizzle
I wake up feeling like i'm holding my breath. Because at any given moment, it can change. Being ,honestly, in love, is unexplainable. sure, we're young, naive, even stupid. but from my heart, it's more than real. It's not caring what anyone else is thinking becuz all u want is to steal a smile, or a laugh, or a kiss. it's been over 14months now and I still panic when my phone rings with his ID. But it's also torture. In a hopeless romantic sense. I only feel like I want to have every moment I can with him. every moment i cant, thats the torture. Because every moment, even fights or pure silence, are the most delicate and perfect moments i will ever ask for.
Love is something that u dream of your whole life. You expect it to be predictable like u dream, and always perfect. Always full of kisses, and surprises, but the truth is, love is how u handle it. I've realized you can choose how much u give to someone, love is scary. Becuz it's only really real when u give him your whole heart. and PRAY to God he doesnt break it. that revelation is more than terrifying. I will never regret any moment. Love isn't half-hearted.
i have no idea where that came from. but I needed to put it down.
Life is flying by. We finally finished all college transcripts. most applications. the ones im delaying are ones i really don't care about anywayz.
Sent in the most important one. and now i sit here, like i said, holding my breath. I think that if u know which school im talking about u know why im so nervous.
It can't be real. It's the blasted intuition that I'm always so "blessed" with. And it's telling me that it can't be possible. It just can't. Like I've said before, part of growing up is realizing we don't always get what we want. It's hard to swallow tho, I want this more than i've ever wanted anything.IN MY LIFE.I just want that letter. AAAAAAH.
IGA.o.IGA. It seems that most of our life sentences are being served there.It seems that drama isn't in full force at the moment. then again, maybe I'm just out of the loop. W/E. all the boys are leaving towards sumemr, which in turn means,faces will be replaced.and new faces are in order. jon will be forgotten. cashiers will leave, we will be forgotten. I think we should right a book. or have like , an initiation like sororities do, or somezing. then the alumni of NFS will always be known. I jsut realized something. If IGA was my college experience, (in terms of years) I would now be a senior. Wow i can only imagine how fast college will go.... will the freshmen of Iga have vintage stories? will they cling to each other like family as we did? will they mock and name customers as well as we? no. becuz we are the stepping stones of all employees to come....poor things.
Today is Delisheena's bday. and as i sit here trying to recall when and who actually gave her that name in the first place, im getting angry that i cannot remember. hm. Happy 22nd DELISHE!
I randomly went and bought TRISTAN & ISOLDE today. I knew i would love it at first glance. and i was right. although it's completely Romeo and Juliet, it's great. MAKES ya cry. makes ya wince. just enuf gore to please the guy and o, enuf love to make u want him. very a-typical movie. but, I loved it. Loved it. and o. HOW could i forget..LAURA...tristan is played by the one and only - JAMES FRANCO. u wont be disapointed.
The Interns (insert angels singing heavenly songs here) are no more. 1999-2006. RIP. after long consideration, and no namely blame, they are calling it quits. I almost cried. Tony was OSO polite, but i sensed the choke in his voice. (granted it was instant messager) but alas. this sux. BAD. here's to skanking our butts off, making singing fools of ourselves, and getting hit on? by random intern..?groupies? CHEERS.
I really have nothin to say, which is evident by the massive essay before this statement. The only noise in my house is the dog eating. did i mention, i might steal sheenas puppy. jk. I want a yorky. bradley promised me one when he's making his pharmacy money.I hope time flies faster than it is right now. he's being suspicious right now. planning something for prom, sneaking around calling my parents when he thinks i don't know. that boy. he almost slipped today. and my parents are so tight lipped i cant get ANYTHING out of them. did i mention, im VERY impatient. patience is not one of my strong points. im so suspicious right now. this is why im posting. I cant sleep. argh!
Indians Game with the LOVE and the rents. sorry for the rhetoric. but hey, isn't that was lj is for?!
peace / love / and Suspicion.......*raised eyebrow*
mackizzle