Fear tells me I'm doing it right...

[volkmeter]

So I have been placed at a fascinating opportunity crossroads, no, threshold. I have been extended an opportunity to journey to California, to Los Angeles, and attend Siggraph 2010, a massive interactivity and technology conference. Not only would I be attending one of the world's largest animation and interactive design events, but I would be attending with a friend of mine who is a well respected go getter in the industry who wants to introduce me to her myriad amazing contacts in said industry (That notably covers video games, the internet, and movie production).

I am frankly terrified. I don't feel like my work is up to snuff, and I just finished polishing my resumé for the umpteenth time. I have very little personal confidence in my work, especially since most people view me as a generalist who is unfocused as opposed to well rounded.

The fact I am terrified tells me that I must do this. I have to go to face myself and show the world that I am competent, capable and talented enough to make impressions in the industry. I will boldly go and do this absolutely psychotically ill fated thing so that I can take a risk and triumph where I have, in the past, merely retreated and defeated myself.

For now, I will remain sick to my stomach and try to not have a migraine from the stress.