this can't happen to me

[voleybalchicki]

What can i do. I'm so lost. So Hurt. Nothing will ever be the same again. I can't forget. I'm still so in love with him. I can't stop crying. Why can't i just run away? Get away from all the pain? I still love him... so much its killing me. I don't know what i did, or what im going to do. I need help. I keep saying that this is it.... it is what it is. But i can't!! I'd do anything for him to love me again... but he wont. I hate my self. I hate everything. I want to die.... fuck. Will somone kill me? I'm so lonley. He was the only thing i had from truly hating myself. And now hes gone... why does it feel like i will never love again? I need someone to tell me everything is going to be okay.... anyone. I need a friend. The only true friend i have now is gone...... no one else cares about me. I fell so little. I want to get out of Rahway. I want to move away. Nothing is here for me. I want a new life. I want to start over. I hate this...

I still love you.

♥

..i can't believe its over