Shot in the dark
Relationships. What does it mean to me now? Do I look forward to them now? My heart has been torn many times where I do not think it can be mended anymore. I don't have anything to look forward to. I cannot rely on people because I do not want to burden them with my problems. The statement is true that nice guys finish last and I am ready to think of that as a truth now. Its been to long where I have tried and helped people and what ends up happening is they walk all over me and use me. My kindness is my weakness. I don't plan on looking for anyone anymore and just work on my career. I don't even want to go out or anything. I find it best that I just work on school and watch movies. That way I cannot get myself into any trouble. Everytime I open my heart it gets torn apart. So I figure if I just close it all away I cannot get hurt and maybe sometime in a couple of years or so I will open up. All I really want to happen right now is to be all alone. I am my own best friend. I also have my pets and no matter what is going on they are always there for me. It seems like everything I touch turns to shit and no matter what I do its always my fault. I am just sad and need to be alone.