I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other
Im sittin here woundering what life will bring next. Its all pretty much open for anything, and im exited and a little anxious to know where i'll be in 2 or 6 months from now. Im turning 18 in a few weeks, march 4th to be exact and well frankly i dont feel any more older or grown up. Granted i am looking foward to turning 18, PARTY!, and im no longer a kid. Im an adult. YEA RIGHT! lmao. Im off to college this year, graduating high school...better known as "the" hell whole lol. Ah who am i kidding? I've had a wounderful high school expirience, but truth is, im TIERD of the same crap every single day, and i think i have about 150 seniors of BHS's class of 2005 to back me up lol.
As far as my love life. Well thats going, it seems like i suddenly have way more options that i can handle. i know what ur thinking, "IS SHE KIDDING ME? IS SHE ACUTALLY COMPLANING?" haha no im not, well not exacly. Im so sick of wasting my time with these little boys. They are pathetic. I guess what im trying to say is:
"I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. And I don't think that love is here __________."
Quoting my obssesion from Sex and the City Carrie. Nobody does it like carrie. I tend to settle for the first thing that seems comfortable to me, and that is just not acceptable anymore. I want someone who i connect with, someone with more than just a pretty face (wouldn't hurt lol), someone whose voice dosent drive me up the wall, someone who's voice just makes me melt. I thought i was inlove before but now i realize that i wanted to be inlove but truthfully i was kidding myself. Im not sorry it happend. I learned, I learned what not to do again, i learned that relationships should be aproched with a bit more caution, Im not a kid anymore, i need something with a bit more substance. Correction, I WANT more. No regrets we had some wounderful times, but it dosent go beyond that. I was wrong.
What do you call what you thought was once love, but now know that it wasent? Who knows, but whatever it was i dont want to have it again. ever again.
Again i'll reffer back to the bible.
"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous"
Those are the last words of the last episode of sex and the city, my ultimate fav. show in the world, whome im watching this very minute. I've seen it like a million times and still manage to cry every time. That very statement sums up my life and the way i look at it. So baby, THATS JUST FABULOUS.
mmm wanna guess what im thinking?
<3
As far as my love life. Well thats going, it seems like i suddenly have way more options that i can handle. i know what ur thinking, "IS SHE KIDDING ME? IS SHE ACUTALLY COMPLANING?" haha no im not, well not exacly. Im so sick of wasting my time with these little boys. They are pathetic. I guess what im trying to say is:
"I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. And I don't think that love is here __________."
Quoting my obssesion from Sex and the City Carrie. Nobody does it like carrie. I tend to settle for the first thing that seems comfortable to me, and that is just not acceptable anymore. I want someone who i connect with, someone with more than just a pretty face (wouldn't hurt lol), someone whose voice dosent drive me up the wall, someone who's voice just makes me melt. I thought i was inlove before but now i realize that i wanted to be inlove but truthfully i was kidding myself. Im not sorry it happend. I learned, I learned what not to do again, i learned that relationships should be aproched with a bit more caution, Im not a kid anymore, i need something with a bit more substance. Correction, I WANT more. No regrets we had some wounderful times, but it dosent go beyond that. I was wrong.
What do you call what you thought was once love, but now know that it wasent? Who knows, but whatever it was i dont want to have it again. ever again.
Again i'll reffer back to the bible.
"Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous"
Those are the last words of the last episode of sex and the city, my ultimate fav. show in the world, whome im watching this very minute. I've seen it like a million times and still manage to cry every time. That very statement sums up my life and the way i look at it. So baby, THATS JUST FABULOUS.
mmm wanna guess what im thinking?
<3