why why why
is my mind playing tricks on me? i feel like without my intentions, i have forgotten certain things that I've went through. like my mother not being around when i needed her and it seems like i still feel the trauma from time to time from that but when i'm not in that sort of mood i just feel like i don't even know that time happened. this is soooo rediculous! this is so weird and difficult to explain. i was young. what the fuck? there is no excuse. thank you for the example of what not to do but what do i do now. i'm an adult. i can't go bang on your chest and scream why why why? what am i supposed to do. i'm just confused and i fucking hate this place and i want to go home. maybe i'm a bitch... whatever!