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So i'm trying to figure out if i want to stay with disney the amount of time i am or switch my availability to like 2 days a week and get a higher paying job. Thats going to be hard to find in Florida. But yea... working 7 days in a rown not getting over time cause they screw you over and the 7 days arent all in the same week. and working 37 hours and barely make 200 dollars... that doesnt seem right to me. I mean for where i am living now thats okay, all i hvae to pay is my phone bill rent to parents and my car payment. And now capital one wants to work out a payment plan with me. consisting will 200 dollars to make sure i want to do it. i wonder if i can work something out where i can work on that 200 to pay them. i dont know... i already have a
Weekly
Car- $50
Rent- $50
Monthly
cell phone- $45-80 (depends on usage)
Then i have my gas which will cost me like each time i fill it about 3 times a week about 15 dollars so weekly in gas is about $45 thats about my whole week paycheck weekly. just imagin me puttting in rent in the monthly... say $450 than electric $50 water $20(for small apartment) cable $40 + cable modem $45= about $85... i need another job, or 2 maybe 3... i dont want to live with my parents the rest of my life. its going to be so hard to pay back this stupid capital one bill... ((damn you jesse for talking me into getting it. and then spending it on a car that wouldnt even pass fucking inspection.. but dont worry i still love you. )) Then, there is my loans from a school i never even finished, which shortly i eill have to pay back. thats another 50 dollars each for 2 loans so $100 in loan payments and i dont want ot be like my sister and not pay them back, thats why she cant get a house or an apartment and they are the perfect picture family for a welfare family, i'm sorry i said it but its true, her or her husband dont have a job they have a 2 year old beautiful boy and now expecting another, how the hell are the going to support themselfs. and yet again i am thinking about other people... and bitching and shit even though i shouldnt cause its none of my business... oh i do that often.
I just want things to turn out right for one day. Work, i want to be happy at work, i mean i am hapy at work, 30% of the time its fake but the other 70 is true. all i ahve to do is think about being with jesse and i'm happy. I dont care where i live with him, florida, new hampshire, timbucktoo... i dont care. as long as i am with him. okay thats enough ranting.... adios untill later