6 days
6 days and i will be on a plane home. home.
It's snuck up on me quite unexpectedly. Gaz and i don't really like talking about it, understandably. Its weird, the feeling of knowing i may never come back. When i left in december, i knew i would be coming back to live in france very soon, but now, this is a real good bye to a peice of my heart. My heart has been broken and then completely rebuilt in this city. I rebuilt parts of myself out of this place, and now i need to remove myself from it. I dont know if id go as far to say that there will be a hole there, because i will always have those memories and everything that i've taken from living in france for 7 months. Sometimes i feel ready to say goodbye, and yet its hard to believe that my life here will soon be a blink of an eye. Of all the people i know here...there were 16+ people at my birthday dinner and there were more who couldn't make it, but i will probably keep in touch with only 2 or 3 of them and i know it. most of those people were nice to me here, and made many a happy night, but they are a part of this place and i am leaving it.
im looking forward to many parts of home. I'm moving into a sweet place with really cool people when i get home, and my little brother will be living in davis now as well. I'm gonna have mexican food and burgers and brew and see those faces that mean much more than a few free pints and a round of shots in a bar. Teddie, i miss teddie. I miss the davis girls and the sac boys, and my siblings and my parents...its not like ive got nothing ahead of me back home. I'll be apart from gareth for a while, but its not like we've never done it before, and he will be with my by thanksgiving. I've got a lot ahead of me. No body is asking me to forget Lyon, i just need to move on to different things now.
It's snuck up on me quite unexpectedly. Gaz and i don't really like talking about it, understandably. Its weird, the feeling of knowing i may never come back. When i left in december, i knew i would be coming back to live in france very soon, but now, this is a real good bye to a peice of my heart. My heart has been broken and then completely rebuilt in this city. I rebuilt parts of myself out of this place, and now i need to remove myself from it. I dont know if id go as far to say that there will be a hole there, because i will always have those memories and everything that i've taken from living in france for 7 months. Sometimes i feel ready to say goodbye, and yet its hard to believe that my life here will soon be a blink of an eye. Of all the people i know here...there were 16+ people at my birthday dinner and there were more who couldn't make it, but i will probably keep in touch with only 2 or 3 of them and i know it. most of those people were nice to me here, and made many a happy night, but they are a part of this place and i am leaving it.
im looking forward to many parts of home. I'm moving into a sweet place with really cool people when i get home, and my little brother will be living in davis now as well. I'm gonna have mexican food and burgers and brew and see those faces that mean much more than a few free pints and a round of shots in a bar. Teddie, i miss teddie. I miss the davis girls and the sac boys, and my siblings and my parents...its not like ive got nothing ahead of me back home. I'll be apart from gareth for a while, but its not like we've never done it before, and he will be with my by thanksgiving. I've got a lot ahead of me. No body is asking me to forget Lyon, i just need to move on to different things now.