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Im beggining to wonder about myself, i feel great, in fact i feel more stable and normal then i have in years....and im proud of the fact that my newfound normalcy doesnt clash with my sence of individuality.
However i am beggining to wonder What the FUCK im doing to my future, i went to my GATT today in dandenong, i did ok i spoze, it doesnt really matter, but i have failed to hand in 1 english SAC, 2 phyc SACs and a single Health SAC, im fucked, royally not to mention, i have a buisness SAC re-submit due on thursday, im beggining to wonder if there is any point in my continuance at this course, well im not wondering at all, i know im going to fail, i just want a couple more weeks of my parents respect that im off doing somthing.....
Ive dropped hints that i want to do an automotive cetificate, well cetificates 1&2 and would then like to go into an apprenticship, i said that will do it next semester just casually as to let my parents get to grips that i may not pass.....well i wont...but anyway, i do belive thats somthing i want to do, i need to work, i need money and by god if i dont do somthing contructive im going to end up some deranged killer sitting in a car with a rifle and some vasaline....sick joke sorry
Anyway to better news, im now 19 one more year im not even a teenager anymore, its scary. I went out for my bday, we went to shooters first then jason came to pick us up...(dan, me, darryl and josh) and we went to a stirp club in franggers called kittens....where jason brought me a lap dance and a coupel of shots.....was a great present, we then went to 21st century night club and though doing so to such horrendusly poofy music made me feel like a douche, i danced.....and danced....and danced...for about 5 hours, almost non-stop i drank and danced then danced then drank and smoked then danced.....wow i do have to say its a scene ive been missing out on and one i did enjoy throughly.
next week were going to a club called The Green Room, Sarah Bruff is taking me and Jason along with her mates, apparently its a metal club in richmond with 3 rooms a goth room, a thrash metal room and a punk room, still this sounds more like my place to party, so i have picked up a little special party drug for the weekend, i now plan to do this every weekend.
Im stuck at home now, its pissing down with rain and all i have to look at is this screen and myself....which isnt so bad. hope everyone had a good weekend.
ben
However i am beggining to wonder What the FUCK im doing to my future, i went to my GATT today in dandenong, i did ok i spoze, it doesnt really matter, but i have failed to hand in 1 english SAC, 2 phyc SACs and a single Health SAC, im fucked, royally not to mention, i have a buisness SAC re-submit due on thursday, im beggining to wonder if there is any point in my continuance at this course, well im not wondering at all, i know im going to fail, i just want a couple more weeks of my parents respect that im off doing somthing.....
Ive dropped hints that i want to do an automotive cetificate, well cetificates 1&2 and would then like to go into an apprenticship, i said that will do it next semester just casually as to let my parents get to grips that i may not pass.....well i wont...but anyway, i do belive thats somthing i want to do, i need to work, i need money and by god if i dont do somthing contructive im going to end up some deranged killer sitting in a car with a rifle and some vasaline....sick joke sorry
Anyway to better news, im now 19 one more year im not even a teenager anymore, its scary. I went out for my bday, we went to shooters first then jason came to pick us up...(dan, me, darryl and josh) and we went to a stirp club in franggers called kittens....where jason brought me a lap dance and a coupel of shots.....was a great present, we then went to 21st century night club and though doing so to such horrendusly poofy music made me feel like a douche, i danced.....and danced....and danced...for about 5 hours, almost non-stop i drank and danced then danced then drank and smoked then danced.....wow i do have to say its a scene ive been missing out on and one i did enjoy throughly.
next week were going to a club called The Green Room, Sarah Bruff is taking me and Jason along with her mates, apparently its a metal club in richmond with 3 rooms a goth room, a thrash metal room and a punk room, still this sounds more like my place to party, so i have picked up a little special party drug for the weekend, i now plan to do this every weekend.
Im stuck at home now, its pissing down with rain and all i have to look at is this screen and myself....which isnt so bad. hope everyone had a good weekend.
ben