YLAD <- for my uncle

[voirdansmoname]

My eyes hurt a lot from all the crying I've done in the past 2 days but thats small in comparison to how hurt I feel when I really think about it. In church today it was so so sad especially when we were walking out and the guy was singing this song which I've never heard before but it's really nice but makes you cry for the meaning. It was so sad to see everyone cry too, especially Aunt Hazel and also my dad who was a bit teary eyed and that hit me so hard. I dont remember ever see him nearly cry before and that was hard. Then at the burial I wasnt crying badly until the honour guard folded and presented the flag to Aunt Eileen and the bagpiper started to play amazing grace. Then we put our flowers on the casket and I was the second one and I was just flooding with tears by then, and after I just stood there a little way off and was staring at the casket. I must have looked so tragic because 'Aunt' Shirley came over and squeezed my hand and then Aunt Doreen came over and hugged me. I just couldnt stop looking at the casket and I didnt want to just let it disappear like it did. Then Aunt Doreen took me to the restaurant in her car because she's ultra nice like that and Aunt Eileen was with her too and I made myself stop so I wouldnt upset her more. This is enough talk of this subject because it's not the happiest of them....
Blah blah blah blah I had planned on writing much more but I dont quite feel like it and it isnt happening so the end for now