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Tomorrow is Tyler and my [would be] 2 year anniversary.
And honestly, I wasn't going to be bothered.
I wasn't even thinking about it- I was more counting down the days till Connor and my 7 month anniversary.
But now that I know it's bothering him, I feel a little upset.
Part of me doesn't want to forgive him for the things that happened- he told me no one would love me unconditionally. He made me feel guilty for being sad. He threatened to hurt my rabbit. And I only remember being told I was pretty or beautiful twice.
But even though I'm not in love with him anymore, I still care about him. I don't want him to feel bad.
But I can't reach out to him. Because honestly, I'm still hurt. I can't look at him and think nice things. And I feel guilty for that...
But...
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Even though he was a big part of my life for a while, we can't undo things.
I just don't want him to be upset.
And honestly, I wasn't going to be bothered.
I wasn't even thinking about it- I was more counting down the days till Connor and my 7 month anniversary.
But now that I know it's bothering him, I feel a little upset.
Part of me doesn't want to forgive him for the things that happened- he told me no one would love me unconditionally. He made me feel guilty for being sad. He threatened to hurt my rabbit. And I only remember being told I was pretty or beautiful twice.
But even though I'm not in love with him anymore, I still care about him. I don't want him to feel bad.
But I can't reach out to him. Because honestly, I'm still hurt. I can't look at him and think nice things. And I feel guilty for that...
But...
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Even though he was a big part of my life for a while, we can't undo things.
I just don't want him to be upset.