Mr. Sandman, don't send me a dream
The man of my dreams haunts them nightly. I wake up in tears cause it ends the same way every night. Nothing but pain and misery and loneliness. Why I'm dreaming of him now I've no clue. All I know is that it hurts more and more every night.
I'm actually afraid to sleep. I fear the sandman will find me once again and I'll be plagued with another night of things that will never happen. And then there's always the waking up to tears.
I know that anyone who knows my past thinks less of me that he's still on my mind. I know it's been five years and I don't consciously think about him often, but something is definetly happening in my subconscious and I don't know how to stop it.
Please gods, leave me in peace.
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