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god
i fucking hate saying BYE
and its happening all the time
but what more can you do in times
like these.
at the end of phone calls i tend
to say goodnight cause i cant stand
the "B" word. its the most horrible.
so i say anythinng to get around it,
such as "talk to you tomorrow"
or some simple half-ending phrase.
so i dont make complete sense all the time,
but i get out what needs to be said.
and for once i feel wanted,
thats something that never seems to show its face,
a rareity that i welcome.
so whats up with love?
you cant find it when your looking for it,
and for a while I was one of those that
wanted to fall in love.
now i understand in taking that approach
you set yourself up for dead ends and disappointments.
its only when your open and comfortable with yourself
that something may spark.
and ive found that the better you feel about yourself,
the better your appearance is.
when something with someone seems to just work out
or even when it doesnt,
the things that just seem to happen are what you need
to pay attention to most.
when your not concerned with everything that
is going on around you is when someone will pop up
that may change things for you.
and its only when i feel like i wanted,
that someone wants to talk to me
or enjoy my company, that i feel the best about myself
and situations.
so i just opened up, and maybe someone can benefit
from this, cause its alot of supressed thoughts
that just needed to be documented.