Thoughts connected by a thread of one thing leading to another
It's amazing how many things I get robbed of in the Kingdom and it's not always because of condemnation. Oftentimes it's because whenever I see God's purpose in front of me and I go after it, the devil always dangles something in front of me that entices my flesh and distracts me from what God has for me. Then I am presented with a choice to die to what I want and go after God or do what I want and miss out on what God has for me. When the Father calls me and I put it off for something else, He moves on and doesn't wait. That doesn't mean that He won't ever come knocking again but it does mean that what He had is now a lost opportunity.
I have been forced to take a long hard look at myself and realize that my life is lived far more for me than for God. As long as it's convenient I'll go after God but when it comes time to do something I want and God is pulling in another direction, it's a whole other thing entirely. I know I want with at least some part of me to live for God and all for God with no reservations, but that is one part of me that has a tendency to be easily ignored and drowned out when I can in some way satisfy myself. I frickin hate that, I wanna give up this right I feel I have to live life the way I want it. I don't have that right, I gave it up when I came to God.
At the same time I know that my desires don't make me a crap person, because God gave them to me in the first place. It's just a question of whose desires are going to drive the way my life turns out. God desires for me to be who He created me to be, which thank goodness includes all this extra crap which He knew would happen beforehand. God loves me the way He made me and dang it I want to be that way, because God is going to be glorified in my life if I walk in that. It seems so simple but it also seems so far away, but it's not all that far away. Coming into the destiny God has for me as His child is not hard, it's a simple step into that realm.
One step forward to shed all this extra crap off and walk in the light, at least in God's eyes. To us it looks like one step forward and then a long and costly walk forward where we take up our cross daily and die, where God causes us to come into places that are impossible so that we wouldn't depend on ourselves but on Him. Through this whole process we have a hard time seeing that we've stepped into a realm of serious significance spiritually, but God sees what we've done in heaven and knows that it will come to pass on earth. We pray "on earth as it is in heaven" but we don't think about what we're saying. We're asking for what is in heaven to be on earth.
In heaven we are glorified and seated at the right hand of God in Jesus Christ. In heaven we are the righteousness of God because of Christ, we are children of God, we are free from all the bonds of this world because our spirit communes with God constantly. On earth as it is in heaven has serious significance because it means that acknowledgment of our place in heaven and that earth is mean to resemble heaven. Jesus said it, not me. We are meant to walk in all the power and rights that we have in heaven here on earth now. This makes me seriously dissatisfied with my life, but also hopeful because well God wants it for me more than I do. Let it be.
gwwitt
I have been forced to take a long hard look at myself and realize that my life is lived far more for me than for God. As long as it's convenient I'll go after God but when it comes time to do something I want and God is pulling in another direction, it's a whole other thing entirely. I know I want with at least some part of me to live for God and all for God with no reservations, but that is one part of me that has a tendency to be easily ignored and drowned out when I can in some way satisfy myself. I frickin hate that, I wanna give up this right I feel I have to live life the way I want it. I don't have that right, I gave it up when I came to God.
At the same time I know that my desires don't make me a crap person, because God gave them to me in the first place. It's just a question of whose desires are going to drive the way my life turns out. God desires for me to be who He created me to be, which thank goodness includes all this extra crap which He knew would happen beforehand. God loves me the way He made me and dang it I want to be that way, because God is going to be glorified in my life if I walk in that. It seems so simple but it also seems so far away, but it's not all that far away. Coming into the destiny God has for me as His child is not hard, it's a simple step into that realm.
One step forward to shed all this extra crap off and walk in the light, at least in God's eyes. To us it looks like one step forward and then a long and costly walk forward where we take up our cross daily and die, where God causes us to come into places that are impossible so that we wouldn't depend on ourselves but on Him. Through this whole process we have a hard time seeing that we've stepped into a realm of serious significance spiritually, but God sees what we've done in heaven and knows that it will come to pass on earth. We pray "on earth as it is in heaven" but we don't think about what we're saying. We're asking for what is in heaven to be on earth.
In heaven we are glorified and seated at the right hand of God in Jesus Christ. In heaven we are the righteousness of God because of Christ, we are children of God, we are free from all the bonds of this world because our spirit communes with God constantly. On earth as it is in heaven has serious significance because it means that acknowledgment of our place in heaven and that earth is mean to resemble heaven. Jesus said it, not me. We are meant to walk in all the power and rights that we have in heaven here on earth now. This makes me seriously dissatisfied with my life, but also hopeful because well God wants it for me more than I do. Let it be.
gwwitt