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this just is insane...
im crying right now, over things that just dont matter that much
i guess for some people, i guess that wouldnt be so out of charactor... but i NEVER cry... i guess that the stress of exams and all this shit is just cathing up to me
and i have to say that some people shouldnt flatter themselves cuz im not talking about them
right now im talking about the fact that i have to go through first hour everyday and just sit there and be the only one that really doesnt have friends, i just have to sit there and pretend that i dotn care that i have no one to talk to
Im talking about the fact that when i want to hang out with my bestfriends it just doesnt work out
Im talking about the fact that the people that are my real friends i hardly ever see (well there are those few like Chels that i see and talk to immensly almost every day) i mean yea i see you but i dont really get to let loose and have tons of fun... like hope and sienna i get what your saying when you said that i tried to replace you... im sorry as hell for that and i dont know why you guys didnt try to tell me before... i LOVE you!!
Im talking about me not doing as well in classes as i usually do and just not really caring about what i do in school
Im talking about feeling alone unless im really WITH someone
I NEED TO TALK TO MOLLY
cuz she absolutely HAS to come over tomorrow after school i mean its ok if i fail my exams it wont do taht much to my grade
BUT other than that and the fact that **** is taking sides i had an amazing day.
im crying right now, over things that just dont matter that much
i guess for some people, i guess that wouldnt be so out of charactor... but i NEVER cry... i guess that the stress of exams and all this shit is just cathing up to me
and i have to say that some people shouldnt flatter themselves cuz im not talking about them
right now im talking about the fact that i have to go through first hour everyday and just sit there and be the only one that really doesnt have friends, i just have to sit there and pretend that i dotn care that i have no one to talk to
Im talking about the fact that when i want to hang out with my bestfriends it just doesnt work out
Im talking about the fact that the people that are my real friends i hardly ever see (well there are those few like Chels that i see and talk to immensly almost every day) i mean yea i see you but i dont really get to let loose and have tons of fun... like hope and sienna i get what your saying when you said that i tried to replace you... im sorry as hell for that and i dont know why you guys didnt try to tell me before... i LOVE you!!
Im talking about me not doing as well in classes as i usually do and just not really caring about what i do in school
Im talking about feeling alone unless im really WITH someone
I NEED TO TALK TO MOLLY
cuz she absolutely HAS to come over tomorrow after school i mean its ok if i fail my exams it wont do taht much to my grade
BUT other than that and the fact that **** is taking sides i had an amazing day.