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so...i am updating from my news halls of residence...MASON HALL!
i moved in last week and it's so much better. halls are really good cos you live in a big corridor and can pick and choose your friends. i also get to have catered dinner at the really posh halls as that's where everyone goes and the prospects of fit blokes are definitley looking up! so i am really happy and just so fucking glad i never have to see those miserable geeks in my old flat again
i had a good reading week (half term) and went out every night back home...i didn't make it to oceana but i will at xmas. something did happen t hat was not so good though, i was at a party with hamsa and decided to do some pills. as we were so wasted we slept over at this guy's house and when i was wasted i was just like "hamsa lets get this over with, i wanna know if your real about saying you lover me"
i seriously don't know why i did it, its so out of character for me and even though i don't regret it because now if he still says he loves me and is my friend i know its real, i was very ashamed of myself. it only lasted about 2 minutes though as hamsa said the faces i was pulling while on pills were too funny to carry on....
i had my staff night out for snobs ;ast night and it was awful. snobs is the skanky rock club where i work. oddly enough though, everyone at uni seems to love it. i have no idea why its jujust so popular. so it turns out something i was embarassed about has turned into something i boast about!
anyway....i know 'alternative' people love to make out how they're so open minded and 'normal' people are the judgemental ones but as anyone who's been through the 'grunger' stage knows, that's not true. the girls at work mostly have a really bitchy attitude towards me, and even though i don't want to be up myself and assume its jealousy, i can't help thinking it.
among the comments i got from various girls on the night out were things like, i never pull my weight at work, i give the impression i only get on with the males, not girls, one girl said she hated the club we were at cos "all the girls in here look like they're trying so hard by dressing up" (which was clearly aimed at me)....and one girl who was really rude asked me where i was from cos i don't look british so i said my mum's half of the family are russian, and then she said in a really bitchy voice how my hair's not naturally blonde, so i just said yes i'm not going for the natural look i know it's not real blonde...and she just said 'yeah well everyone else knows too' and walked off.
i just think that's such a rude and unnecessary thing to say to someone. i'd never make a personal comment like that about anyone, especially on a night where it's meant to be a social.
so i pretty much felt alienated from all the girls and thought to myself, no wonder i give the impression i get on with the blokes i can't stand these girl's pathetic attitude! although i didn't have much luck either what with the bald toothless bouncer and my asian manager with 4 kids making disgusting comments to me all night. i know its better than being ugly and having no one fancy you but i just felt really cheap cos they didn't do it to any other girls. still, why would they when they're all fat ugly cows!
anyway....i shan't go to one of those again and i plan to leave and find a better job soon anyway.
quitting work isn't an option as i'm £400 in to my over draft! i might just be naughty and splurge on a hair cut though because i've decided i think my hair cut is quite unflattering...its all the s ame length and so just looks a bit like a straight sheet, so i want to get some shape and layers cut in round the back.
off out now...even though i should be staying in and doing my essay on marxism! heehee
i moved in last week and it's so much better. halls are really good cos you live in a big corridor and can pick and choose your friends. i also get to have catered dinner at the really posh halls as that's where everyone goes and the prospects of fit blokes are definitley looking up! so i am really happy and just so fucking glad i never have to see those miserable geeks in my old flat again
i had a good reading week (half term) and went out every night back home...i didn't make it to oceana but i will at xmas. something did happen t hat was not so good though, i was at a party with hamsa and decided to do some pills. as we were so wasted we slept over at this guy's house and when i was wasted i was just like "hamsa lets get this over with, i wanna know if your real about saying you lover me"
i seriously don't know why i did it, its so out of character for me and even though i don't regret it because now if he still says he loves me and is my friend i know its real, i was very ashamed of myself. it only lasted about 2 minutes though as hamsa said the faces i was pulling while on pills were too funny to carry on....
i had my staff night out for snobs ;ast night and it was awful. snobs is the skanky rock club where i work. oddly enough though, everyone at uni seems to love it. i have no idea why its jujust so popular. so it turns out something i was embarassed about has turned into something i boast about!
anyway....i know 'alternative' people love to make out how they're so open minded and 'normal' people are the judgemental ones but as anyone who's been through the 'grunger' stage knows, that's not true. the girls at work mostly have a really bitchy attitude towards me, and even though i don't want to be up myself and assume its jealousy, i can't help thinking it.
among the comments i got from various girls on the night out were things like, i never pull my weight at work, i give the impression i only get on with the males, not girls, one girl said she hated the club we were at cos "all the girls in here look like they're trying so hard by dressing up" (which was clearly aimed at me)....and one girl who was really rude asked me where i was from cos i don't look british so i said my mum's half of the family are russian, and then she said in a really bitchy voice how my hair's not naturally blonde, so i just said yes i'm not going for the natural look i know it's not real blonde...and she just said 'yeah well everyone else knows too' and walked off.
i just think that's such a rude and unnecessary thing to say to someone. i'd never make a personal comment like that about anyone, especially on a night where it's meant to be a social.
so i pretty much felt alienated from all the girls and thought to myself, no wonder i give the impression i get on with the blokes i can't stand these girl's pathetic attitude! although i didn't have much luck either what with the bald toothless bouncer and my asian manager with 4 kids making disgusting comments to me all night. i know its better than being ugly and having no one fancy you but i just felt really cheap cos they didn't do it to any other girls. still, why would they when they're all fat ugly cows!
anyway....i shan't go to one of those again and i plan to leave and find a better job soon anyway.
quitting work isn't an option as i'm £400 in to my over draft! i might just be naughty and splurge on a hair cut though because i've decided i think my hair cut is quite unflattering...its all the s ame length and so just looks a bit like a straight sheet, so i want to get some shape and layers cut in round the back.
off out now...even though i should be staying in and doing my essay on marxism! heehee