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so i was sitting here thinking..
im bored. i was swimming alone and was thinking of people to invite. no one. no one around the twin cities aren't busy. dan and kira are at bob dylan which is way cool! katie went to comfort matt.. totally cool considering the situation. allisons at her boyfriends house... again, well not really just wiht him AGAIN. andrea is i dunno. i love you andrea, but you take forever to encourage to come over and swim! and brian's at work. so that leaves me with.... bemidji people who will not and should not come driving here to go swimming with me, even though i had to ask just to ask! so i update my LJ instead. how exciting.
this leaves me inside. i dont want to be inside. i want to be outside doing something not being bored yet i have nothing that entertains me outside. i want to see friends more often than i do. i have to dodge around work to see some friends and some friends are leaving and it just blows a casket in my nose. it hurts and i hate my job and im actually eager to go back to walmart in bemidji where i dont have to actually do work and i dont have to worry about trying to sell fuckin credit cards! FUCK YOU CREDIT CARDS FUCK YOU PLUS PROGRAM FUCK YOU DISCOVER never will i have one never will i use my walmart credit after sams. never. i want and need to do SOMETHING! this sitting around and waiting to go to work blows. i have no incentive for much anymore and i always want to stay curled in bed even if i dont sleep. i dont want to get up and do things sometimes. i hate that feeling. i want a feeling where i feel im doing something good for a difference and what do i do? i wake up.. eat...work out sometimes... go to work to cashier and SELL CREDIT!? Fuck no. never again will i cashier. the end. oh and FYI after work i sit some more. this is me venting. sorry.
im bored. i was swimming alone and was thinking of people to invite. no one. no one around the twin cities aren't busy. dan and kira are at bob dylan which is way cool! katie went to comfort matt.. totally cool considering the situation. allisons at her boyfriends house... again, well not really just wiht him AGAIN. andrea is i dunno. i love you andrea, but you take forever to encourage to come over and swim! and brian's at work. so that leaves me with.... bemidji people who will not and should not come driving here to go swimming with me, even though i had to ask just to ask! so i update my LJ instead. how exciting.
this leaves me inside. i dont want to be inside. i want to be outside doing something not being bored yet i have nothing that entertains me outside. i want to see friends more often than i do. i have to dodge around work to see some friends and some friends are leaving and it just blows a casket in my nose. it hurts and i hate my job and im actually eager to go back to walmart in bemidji where i dont have to actually do work and i dont have to worry about trying to sell fuckin credit cards! FUCK YOU CREDIT CARDS FUCK YOU PLUS PROGRAM FUCK YOU DISCOVER never will i have one never will i use my walmart credit after sams. never. i want and need to do SOMETHING! this sitting around and waiting to go to work blows. i have no incentive for much anymore and i always want to stay curled in bed even if i dont sleep. i dont want to get up and do things sometimes. i hate that feeling. i want a feeling where i feel im doing something good for a difference and what do i do? i wake up.. eat...work out sometimes... go to work to cashier and SELL CREDIT!? Fuck no. never again will i cashier. the end. oh and FYI after work i sit some more. this is me venting. sorry.