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Had a mini-breakdown yesterday. The stress involved with buying a house is intense. I'm also highly stressed at work, I'm in one of the most stressful points I've experienced in this job so far.
Being stressed at home and then being able to come into work to unwind (yes, this has happened before) is OK. Being stressed at work and then coming home to unwind is OK. This beings stressed at home and work is bad. I'm going at 100% all of the time and even though I know it will be over in 2-3 weeks it feels like it's going to last forever.
My house is in upheaval. Everything is in constant change because we've been slowly packing and cleaning for a month now. I've told people before that my high level of organization isn't something I do just because, it's a crutch so that I can deal with the world around me.
I've done all of the math and the calculations and I know I can afford everything in any probable situation (discounting zombies, large earthquakes etc.) but there is this panic inside of me that won't go away.
I've resorted to purposeful stress eating which helps out. I'm sure that I've gained a couple pounds in the last month or so but I'm confidant that I can take them off again when everything evens out.
The vacation is going to help tremendously, venting in LJ helps too. It's going to be awesome when this is all done and I've got a feeling that the future me is going to be grateful to the current me for many years to come.
Being stressed at home and then being able to come into work to unwind (yes, this has happened before) is OK. Being stressed at work and then coming home to unwind is OK. This beings stressed at home and work is bad. I'm going at 100% all of the time and even though I know it will be over in 2-3 weeks it feels like it's going to last forever.
My house is in upheaval. Everything is in constant change because we've been slowly packing and cleaning for a month now. I've told people before that my high level of organization isn't something I do just because, it's a crutch so that I can deal with the world around me.
I've done all of the math and the calculations and I know I can afford everything in any probable situation (discounting zombies, large earthquakes etc.) but there is this panic inside of me that won't go away.
I've resorted to purposeful stress eating which helps out. I'm sure that I've gained a couple pounds in the last month or so but I'm confidant that I can take them off again when everything evens out.
The vacation is going to help tremendously, venting in LJ helps too. It's going to be awesome when this is all done and I've got a feeling that the future me is going to be grateful to the current me for many years to come.