:)
Ok so she's here now.
And I think that I'll be able to move on. I mean totally letting go is impossible right now because I still really love her and words simply cannot change that. But right now I just need to make her happy, and so I've decided to extrude myself from her life for awhile. I don't mean remove myself totally, but just enough to let her and Justin figure things out. And I'm not going to beg her or anything to come back.
Maybe if she stays with him long enough I'll be able to completely move on and let go. Maybe she'll want to come back before then. I don't know but I'm not planning on anything. I'm just glad that she's happy now and I am SURE that I will never ever fuck this up for her again.
It's fine though. Justin is a great guy and I know he'll treat her well. And she is relaly an amazing girl so obviously things will work out nicely for them.
And this is ALL fucking bullshit. Yes everything I've written is bullshit. Here's the bottom line.
I am fine now.
I hope we stay friends.
I hope in the distant future that we get back together.
I hope she doesnt get hurt by Justin.
I'm waiting for them to be together long enough so I can move on.
But that could take a long, long time.
She could come back to me by then, maybe in a few months.
But I'm not planning my life around it.
It's true that I am not going to see anyone else.
Not because I'm WAITING for Cat, per say, but because for some reason I feel like I still have to stay faithful.
I do not chastise her for liking JB. Really.
So I guess it's all good!
And now I think even I can be happy for once.
Fuckin A I do NOT want to go through this BS ever again... haha
(...I wanna say that I love Cat.....
But I'm gonna watch what i say now...)
:)
And I think that I'll be able to move on. I mean totally letting go is impossible right now because I still really love her and words simply cannot change that. But right now I just need to make her happy, and so I've decided to extrude myself from her life for awhile. I don't mean remove myself totally, but just enough to let her and Justin figure things out. And I'm not going to beg her or anything to come back.
Maybe if she stays with him long enough I'll be able to completely move on and let go. Maybe she'll want to come back before then. I don't know but I'm not planning on anything. I'm just glad that she's happy now and I am SURE that I will never ever fuck this up for her again.
It's fine though. Justin is a great guy and I know he'll treat her well. And she is relaly an amazing girl so obviously things will work out nicely for them.
And this is ALL fucking bullshit. Yes everything I've written is bullshit. Here's the bottom line.
I am fine now.
I hope we stay friends.
I hope in the distant future that we get back together.
I hope she doesnt get hurt by Justin.
I'm waiting for them to be together long enough so I can move on.
But that could take a long, long time.
She could come back to me by then, maybe in a few months.
But I'm not planning my life around it.
It's true that I am not going to see anyone else.
Not because I'm WAITING for Cat, per say, but because for some reason I feel like I still have to stay faithful.
I do not chastise her for liking JB. Really.
So I guess it's all good!
And now I think even I can be happy for once.
Fuckin A I do NOT want to go through this BS ever again... haha
(...I wanna say that I love Cat.....
But I'm gonna watch what i say now...)
:)