Update on my mom

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Yesterday was another really hard day. Some moments of tears and some moments of strength. Heather got in to town so it's nice to have the family together for this. We went to see mom at the hospital and I talked to her as soon as I entered the room and one of the machines spiked high with respiratory, so I am convinced she knew I was there and heard what I said. We are being strong and getting everything down for her so she can just rest and fight this pneumonia. The news yesterday was she is still on 110% oxygen and the body is taking in 78% of that and using it. The day before was 72%, so that is an improvement. They are still growing cultures to see what type of pneumonia this is but in the meantime they are giving her 4 antibiotics. Which are still not working. :( The pneumonia is still just as strong. Her heart is struggling big time. The meds they were giving her to keep her bp at 96/50 had to be raised from 300 to 500. Keep pumping little heart, come on!! Her kidneys are still working so so. Her temp is between 102 and 103.1. Which is a good sign cause it means she is still fighting with the immune system and the high temps will start to kill the pneumonia. So they are not giving her tylenol unless it goes above 103.5 which could be dangerous for her in other ways. They started the experimental drug yesterday and so far no side effects from it. She will be given that for 96 hrs. I touch her a lot and let her know I am there and I will not give up on her and that everyone is praying for her. That's all we know right now. She is still critical but stable at the moment. They said this could take days 7-9 before we see improvement. But it's ok, as long as she keeps fighting, then we are ok. It's when she gives up fighting that we have to really be concerned. And my mom has a will to live, so I know she is fighting with all she has. She will have plenty of rest time when she is in recovery. Right now she has to work as hard as hell. I try to stay by family until bed cause I am not too safe with my thoughts alone. I cry more when I am alone and not that crying is bad, but it's just a lot. I was exhausted last night and slept much better then the night before. I laid down at 7pm and fell asleep. I was woken 6 times by calls until 11pm, but that's ok. I need to know people care and are there. Then I slept well until about 8am. Waking 2 times to get a drink, go potty and feed the begging cats. Ok, well, I will keep you posted soon. I love getting your emails, so thanks.
Hanging on,
Heidi