Christmas Eve....Eve

[vmalys]

Short entry, as it's only about one thing really- and not even one of particular importance, all in all. Today I was getting things put away etc. at work, cleaning up, making sure I had all my stuff where it needed to be when I noticed this girl at the front desk. The vast majority of the medical center's patients are elderly, usually white- but I guess that's really just circumstantial. In any case, I glanced her way to find I was already being more than glanced at. It's funny, because I get that a fair amount at my work really. I am the only male there as I have mentioned before, and I don't dress like any of the staff (just whatever I throw on in the morning) while it is clear that I work there. In this case however the girl seemed immediately familiar but I couldn't place her- mind you when I say girl I mean my age or older, just to clarify. That wasn't the thing that really struck me though, but the look on her face. It was a pretty face too, but she was so sad. It wasn't the "I've been sobbing for hours" look of sadness, when the face is a bit worn in appearance etc. This was the kind of sad that's been stuck on someone for at least a day or so when the tears have stopped but the feeling lingers. Maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic, but it really was quite the illustration of melancholy in my mind and it just struck me dead for a moment when I saw it, and as a result we had a few seconds of staring at each other. Really it was.. odd. If I had to guess I would place her as vietnamese or chinese, not that it matters any. I'm just wondering why she seemed familiar, though now I think it may be just that she looks like so many females I have seen before. In any case, I hope whatever it is that I saw- or think I saw- takes its leave sooner than later. =\ I'll be around.


When the time is right you got to get up and fight.
When your number's up you gotta get up and die. Yeah.

Would you walk five blocks to meet me?
That skin will get numb...

How many times have you been mistreated?
How many times have you been misled?
They brought this nightmare to life...
All we wanted was to be respected!
Learned our lessons, and don't you forget-
We stand larger than life.
What if I lost it...?

It was said and done, but I needed some more.
I hadn't had enough, I kept kicking in doors. Yeah.

Would you walk five blocks to meet me?
That skin will get numb...

How many times have you been mistreated?
How many times have you been misled?
They brought this nightmare to life...
All we wanted was to be respected!
Learned our lessons, and don't you forget-
We stand larger than life.
What if I lost it?

Now, what if I lost it?

Convicted with no excuse so
Just pull the trigger, I got nothin' to lose you know-
Dispute it!
Dispute it!
I will not be locked down.
Split-lipped with nothin' to lose you know
I never really change my point of view you know-
Dispute it!
The victim is you.
I will not be locked down!
Is you!
I will not be locked down!
Is you!
I will not be locked down!
Is you!
I will not be locked down!

How many times have you been defeated?
How many times have you been depressed?
How many times have you taken the beating?
How many times you been put to the test?
All we wanted was to be respected!
Learned our lessons, don't you ever forget-
We stand larger than life...
What if I lost it?