Final gift for lullabylucky

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First off, I am SO very sorry this was so late. I hope you don't hate me forever, Kirstie :(

Second, I am also sorry that there isn't a lot here. I intended to make you a zillion icons to make up for the late-ness but my photoshop crapped out on me and I've been trying to install a new one for days.





I know you wanted a ficmix, but seeing as I can't write fic without your eyes burning, I made you a fanmix - with an idea for a fic in Dean's PoV - instead.

Stay With Me Tonight





Going Through Changes - Army of Me 
Pre-series Dean as a rebelious teenager, because at some point everyone was.

It’s hard to have strength when there’s nothing to eat
And it’s hard to eat when you don’t have the teeth
And how, when you lose the one thing you love
There’s nothing below and there’s nothing above

I’ve been going through changes
I’ve been going through changes
I’ve been going through changes
With nothing at all

It’s hard to accept what you don’t understand
And it’s hard to launch without knowing how to land
And how, when it burns, you can’t change a thing
You can soften the blow, but you can’t stop the sting

I’ve been going through changes
I’ve been going through changes
I’ve been going through changes
With nothing at all
With nothing at all
With nothing at all

I am still yours even if you’re not mine
I stare at the floor and I study the lines
Oh I took my place at the back of the crowd
Baby I couldn’t see, but at least it was loud
At least it was loud

And I’ve been going through changes
And I’ve been going through changes
And I’ve been going through changes

And I know that I needed changes
But not this, this is not painless
Oh no, this is not painless

Innocence - Avril Lavigne
Pre-series Veronica, who thought everything was perfect.

Waking up I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

This innocence is brilliant
it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant

please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

Curse of Curves - Cute Is What We Aim For
Post s3 finale, newly single Veronica goes to a frat party to get over both Logan and Piz. While driving through Neptune, Dean just wants to party.

I've got the gift of one liners
And you've got the curse of curves
And with this gift I compose words
And the question that comes forward
Are you perspiring from the irony
Or sweating to these lyrics
And this just in
You're a dead fit
But my wit won't allow it

The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse of curves
So with the combination of my gift with one liners
And my way
My way with words
It seems I'm too hip to keep tight lipped
And you're on the gossip team
You're making something out of nothing
Your jealousy's the cousin, the cousin of greed

The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes
The inside lingo had me at hello
And we go where the money goes

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structures screams (I want someone)
"Touch her! Touch her!" (I want someone)
And she's got the curse, the curse of:
From what I heard with skin you'll win

We All have teeth that can bite underneath
To where the reality grows
Yeah, that's where mine go
that's where mine go
We all have teeth that can bite underneath
To where the reality grows
Yeah that's where mine go
The reality grows

From what I've heard with skin you'll win
And From what I've heard with skin you'll win

I want someone provocative and talkative
But it's so hard when you're shallow as a shower
And from what I've heard with skin you'll win

Her bone structure screams (I want someone)
"Touch her! Touch her!"
And she's got the curse, the curse of: (I want someone)
From what I heard with skin you'll win
With skin you'll win
Skin you'll win

Situations - Escape the Fate
Dean and Veronica get - ahem - friendly.

The situations are irrelevant now.
She loves the way that I tease.
I love the way that she breathes.

I touched her (ohh).
She touched my (ahhh).
It was the craziest thing.

I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh.
She licked her lips and pulled my hair I fall in love for a night.

She can't behave and I'm just a slave.
Don’t worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened lying is your favorite passion.
Leave me go where you belong,
Higher heels and lipstick napkins dying is your latest fashion.

The frustration it's a regular thing
I hate the ones who love to hate because they're just like me.
A certain girl she took her hand and put in my lap
It's way too full she said once you have me you'll always come back.

She can't behave and I'm just a slave,
don’t worry I'll be gone when the morning comes.

Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened lying is your favorite passion
Leave me go where you belong
Higher heels and lipstick napkins dying is your latest fashion.

I know you love to insist and all it takes is a kiss and you just
Love to hate me.

You know you love all the lies so don’t act surprised but I just
Love to hate you.

I kissed your lips you pulled my hair it was the craziest thing. I
Love the girls who love to hate. (Breathing)

(Whoa!) Darling what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me go where you belong higher heels
And lipstick napkins dying is your latest fashion

Darling(leave me) what is going on?
Honestly that never happened
Lying is your favorite passion
Leave me(darling) go where you belong higher heels
And lipstick napkins dying is your favorite passion

Don't Wake Me Up - The Hush Sound
The morning after(Veronica PoV).

You came to me
In seemless sleep
Slipped right in
Behind my eye
On the back of my mind
We swam a sea
Of pretty sights and chandelier skies
I swore i could feel you breathe
It was all so real to me

The light had slipped through the window
The morning ripped you away oh

Dont wake me up
I am still dreaming
The storms undone
Unravel at the seams
Dont wake me up
Death is misleading
And when i fall sleep
Sleep with your ghost

I looked in the dark
The room calm and cold
And quiet hollow
I am such a haunted soul
Your ghost has gone to bed
Its so cold

The light had slipped through the window
The morning ripped you away oh

Dont wake me up
I am still dreaming
The storms undone
Unravel at the seams
Dont wake me up
Death is misleading
And when i fall sleep
Sleep with a ghost

Oh you were a fire caught in a storm
Memories like embers keep us warm
You will leave me in the morning me

The light had slipped through the window
The morning ripped you away oh

Don't Look Away - Joshua Radin
Dean keeps staring at her, and Veronica's getting pissy.

My eye's reflection
windows perfection
look and you'll see
the things I can be

the graves have passed
the moments don't last
like the God's of old days
that don't see my way
what I want today

don't look away, if you do than i may
no one knows truth not even you
you let your mind show
hate that i've known
that i've been there before
don't look away anymore

your stare is like a spot on the sun
I'm blind but the only one
who knows what to say to you
I say it today to you
your stare's like a wave
breakaway
from my life in the sand
a simple plan
what I want today

don't look away, if you do than i may
no one knows truth not even you
you let your mind show
hate that i've known
that i've been there before
don't look away anymore

you can't see me now
all those games you play
I can't know you know
I need one more day
cause I want to tell you

don't look away, if you do than i may
no one knows truth not even you
you let your mind show
hate that i've known
that i've been there before
don't look away anymore

don't look away, if you do than i may
no one knows truth not even you
you let your mind show
hate that i've known
that i've been there before
don't look away anymore

don't look away, if you do than i may
no one knows truth not even you
not even you

Break Myself - Something Corporate
Dean wants to stay with her but doesn't want Veronica to get hurt so he tells her they can't be together.

I'm on fire
And the day is feeling hopeless
You'd see me burning
But the burning's turning smokeless
Soon I won't feel at all - No

It's electric
The neon hurt inside your phone call
The layered sadness and her madness it revolves
Bringing down the walls where you found love - No

I'm willing to break myself
To shake this hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days - my reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much

Now I'm static
As your sky is turning purple and gray
I'm learning that the further that I crawl
The further that I fall - is that OK - No

And you're in pieces
As your world becomes a rainstorm
You've got no shelter - I'm a thousand miles away
If you survive the day you say
Say you're leaving
You say your leaving

Well, I'm willing to break myself
To shake this hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days - my reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much
So you don't hurt so much

Never again - will we fire this gun -
Never again - you're the only one
Never again - but you're already gone.

I'm willing to break myself
I'm not afraid
I'm willing to break myself
I'm not afraid
I'm willing to break myself
I'm not afraid

I'm willing to break myself
To shake this hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days - my reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much

So much
So much
So much
So much

Discovering the Waterfront - Silverstein
Finally needing to leave Neptune, Dean tries to forget

I will promise myself I won't care
Distracting myself from your stare
And I’ve seen this mistake once before
With your games I will never fall for

I've hung up my guns
I won’t kill again

I won't forget you
I won't forget you
I'm not gonna let you win
(I’m not gonna)

But I’m tired of lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

You asked for my heart
You know that I'm down
But not the way you lie to me
And tear it all apart
And beg for me to stay

I've sailed off to sea
I'm not coming back

I won't forget you
I won't forget you
I'm not gonna let you win
(I'm not gonna)

But I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

Counting down
Make that sound
And you know it makes no sense

Counting down
Till you mess around
And I know you can't ever change
When I'm trembling
Thrown overboard
When I'm ready to relive the past

Counting down
Make that sound
Break the silence

Pretend it's not forever
I'll pull myself together
I'll say that I'll forget her
I'll breathe

And I'll say she never hurt me
And look at it as learning
And laugh about the good and the bad

Because I won't live forever
We don't belong together
I know I'll feel better
One day when I can make it through

I won't forget you
I'm not gonna let you win
(I'm not gonna)

But I'm tired of lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

I won't forget you
(Counting down)
I'm not gonna let you win
(Counting down)
I'm tired of the lying
Tired of fighting you
And it's not gonna change

Godspeed - Anberlin
Dean takes out his anger on all of the demons.

Burning down neverland scatter the ashes
White lines black ties the mansions
Is this another death by misadventure,
Tell me what you got, what you really got
(Hey, Hey)
We’ll rest in our graves,
Lexington course your veins
Sleepers can't just wake the dead
When needles and lovers collapse on guilty beds

Fall asleep (don't fall asleep)
Don't fall asleep

(They lied when they said that "the good die young")

They lied when they said "the good die young!"
woah-oh-ah-oh
They lied when they said "the good die young!"
stay with me, stay with me tonight

Burning down bridges now, scatter the ashes
Godspeed to all you're after
Is this a life left just to remember?
Tell them who you were, who you really were
Kill yourself slowly over time, fashion statement suicide
She's still asleep in a Chelsea hotel
Bad turn to worse, and the worst turns into hell

Fall asleep, don't fall asleep
Don't fall asleep
(God save the eyes that dim tonight)

They lied when they said "the good die young!"
woah-oh-ah-oh
They lied when they said "the good die young!"
Stay with me, stay with me tonight

Woah-Oh-Ah-Oh

They lied when they said "the good die young!"
woah-oh-ah-oh
They lied when they said "the good die young!"
Stay with me, stay with me tonight

They lied when they said "the good die young!"
woah-oh-ah-oh
They lied when they said "the good die young!"
Stay with me, stay with me tonight

Life of a Solider - illScarlett
Dean wants to try things with Veronica, but has one demon to kill before he can return to Neptune. Then Veronica gets devastating news from Sam.

You’re at home, I’m away
And if all I can say
Is that this boy is still the same
It’s the man inside that’s changed
Front of the line but still behind
Seems like I’m trying way too hard
And like I haven’t tried at all

Hard as stone but feeling all the weight
Feeling all the weight that’s crushing me
When you come around
You’re like a little slice of heaven when I’m coming down
Lifting me up above the clouds

I’ll sleep tonight but the war's far from over
Tomorrow is no guarantee
If I don’t return from this life of a soldier
Don’t you be crying for me.

Throw this all away
Nothing comes for free at least that’s what they say
If I had the chance I’d do it all again
If I had the chance I’d do it all again
Racing against the clock trying to relieve the pressure
Pushing you away so we can be together
Carry me today, I’ll carry you forever
Let’s take a chance and we’ll see if this won’t last
Hard as a stone but feeling all the weight
Feeling all the weight that’s crushing me
When you come around
You’re like a little slice of heaven when I’m coming down
Lifting me up above the clouds.

I’ll sleep tonight but the war's far from over
Tomorrow is no guarantee
If I don’t return from this life of a soldier
Don’t you be crying for me.

There’s a car pulling up and the man who’s inside
Takes a deep breath as he straightens his tie
It’s nothing new cause he’s done this before
She knew it as soon as he knocked on the door
"Please someone please tell me I must be dreaming
What will I do oh, I just can’t believe it
Taken away, oh he’s
Taken away
Someone take me away
Someone take me away."

I’ll sleep tonight but the war's far from over
Tomorrow is no guarantee
If I don’t return from this life of a soldier
Don’t you be crying for me.

Nothing comes for free at least that’s what they say
If I had the chance I’d do it all again 
Merry (very, very late) Christmas!